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Staying positive and optimistic is getting harder and harder each day. I was convinced that things where going to get better after loosing my job. Its becoming more obvious now that optimism is nothing more then a mask to blind yourself from reality. Nothing is getting better. Things are worse. I keep getting my hopes up just to have them smashed or stomped on. Its to the point that the positive reinforcement from friends is nothing more then mocking reminders of my status in life. I'm becoming increasingly bitter and hateful of everyone and it just makes me feel even more alone.




I hate updates because I never have anything good happen.