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Surgery today... will admit im nervous about the anesthesia as ive never been put under before but my nerves are cut by the fact everyone around me is spazz, constant good lucks and hope it goes wells... you would think i was about to attempt a motorcycle jump across 50 cars....

I think normal people would take the over reacting panic and worry of those around me as a sign of caring but for some reason i cant help but feel like its all a fake attempt for me to feel loved as opposed to genuine care... of course this leads me to resent the well wishing and become angry and agitated with those around me. almost a sense of resentment.