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Life has been....interesting as of late.

I spent this weekend talking, and getting to know this really wonderful girl for whom I have grown an attraction to. But as per normal things are not simple. You see, she has a crush on my roommate. A rather large one that basically blinds her from the world around her. She crushes on him because he showed her affection, not necessarily in a romantic or sexual sense, but instead as a friend. He told her she was attractive and smart. He spent time with her, getting to know her. He wants nothing more then a friendship due mainly to the fact that he is engaged. She however, in her blind devotion to the attention he gave thinks that he is wrong and should be with her. Because of this, though she clearly had a good time with me, and has a great deal in common with me. She is unable to see that I exist and give her everything she assumes only he can, and more. The odd thing is that, despite that, despite everything thats happened, I don't have any urge to walk away. She tried to get both of us to hate her. Him so she could validate his not being with her, and me in an attempt to scare me away. It didn't work in the slightest, because both of us saw right through it. I still want to know the real her better, I told her exactly what it was she could do to get rid of me, and she admitted she could and would never do that. So here I am, stuck and confused.