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Man, im lazy, i finaly got most if not all my clothing into my apt....and havent put any of it away, boy do i suck. Oh well it will get done eventualy. Ya know Zazen has realy hepled me get through some tough times, meditation and thaught collection puts things into a good perspective. Only problem is that no matter how much i do it, or how hard i try, i cant seem to get over the anger and heartbreak i get when i hear the words "your like a brother to me" Those words realy suck...

I dont want to be a brother, ive got 2 sisters thats enoguh for me. Luckaly it is not from Lis whom just came home from Vegas, though she has in the long past said that. No this is from another when I told her (despite the fact i thaught it was obvious based on the way i acted around and talked to her) that i was interested.

You would think the line got old....Girls, any girls that read this. DONT TELL A GUY he is like a brother to you, Just tell him your not interested its alot easier that way, and dont expect him to just accept it and pretend nothing happened. We have feelings and emotions too even if we dont show them as outwardly as women.