apparently i am now attacking myself asleep.
i woke up this morning and have a scratch on the side of my nose. weird. and somehow amusing that i'm beating myself up as i sleep. i obviously fight like a girl.
anyone else have this happen to them?
read what you want.
school
SPOILERS! (Click to view)i have my placement testing on may 3rd, starting at noon. lame. but it can't go too long, right?
i suspect i'll be out by 3ish. hopefully.
and then orientation on june 26th. i get to be there from 8am to 5pm. great.
i've always hated orientations. you sit there and listen to them ramble on about nothing.
and i get to catch traffic either way. i'm so lucky.
tattoo
SPOILERS! (Click to view)looks like mid-late may now it'll be done. at least i'm finally getting a time frame. i should have an actual date later on now. i'm pretty excited. i may just think of something else to have done, something small, and have his apprentice do some work then too for me. the question is more of what and where now.
SG
SPOILERS! (Click to view)i have decided to take a few pictures down in my albums and that i'm not going to do anything with my application [[if you didn't know, i had applied to be an SG]] from how everyone is now acting and own personal decisions, it just wouldn't mean a whole lot to even get accepted now. and well, i like more of the idea for one guy's eyes to see and his eyes only, not a million others. i don't need that up to somehow validate myself and my worth. call me young, naive and whatever else, but it's how i feel.
what is still up, i have up because i like the pictures. and it reminds me i can be sexy, even though i feel like a little awkward girl most of the time.
plus, i guess i've been a little less active on here than i was for a while. too much drama sometimes. gotta pull back and focus on other things.
past
SPOILERS! (Click to view) can't live in yesterday. let it go. i gotta give it away. taking back what's mine.
ok... a lot of comeback kid quotes there. but seriously. i have a tattoo to remind myself that it's not on me anymore and to let go because a higher being has got it now [though you don't have to agree with me, it's my belief]. it's not in my hands. "what is unseen is eternal" and then the lock to bring closure to it.
but i haven't been very good at that all the time. i've been strong. but there's definitely moments it gets to me. not so good at the closure part all the time. and well, let's keep making steps to letting it go because it's the only way i can take back what is mine. so i've got some stuff i have to burn.
i suppose i should find something to do now to keep myself busy so i don't go crazy waiting for tonight.
i got the boy a present, so hopefully he likes it.
and there should be some pictures taken tonight so i'll have those up later.
i want blueberry muffins right now.
I need to go get non-homemade blueberry muffins now.
I dunno. I don't dislike anyone. I just feel like there's too much infighting.
I want to get som ink now but summer is almost here, so I might wait till fall.
And you have to do what best for you, period!
I don't attack myself in my sleep. But I do have a woken up through punches.
Laterz!