I've been in kind of a dark place since my divorce. Not an evil, suicidal dark, just a "circumstances beyond your control have wreaked havoc with your life" kinda dark. I've been quite dispassionate about most of my life. I couldn't get excited about my favorite shows or movie franchises. I haven't wanted to get out of the house much and it feels almost like a dementor attack. I just haven't felt much joy for the past 2 years.
During that time, I looked at the way I've led my life for the past 20-something years and realized that I've lived almost my entire life for someone else. 20 years ago I was physically fit, active, and laughed easily. I miss that guy!
That's why I've decided to take my life back from the darkness and everyone I had been wasting it on. I'm going to start a journey where I push myself out of my comfort zone so far I can't even see it anymore.
The "role models" in my family just sit in front of the TV, and that's all that my ex wife wanted to do too. So for over 20 years that's what I did. I'm currently paying for it with asthma attacks and various pain all of the time. Just like if I was working out to get fit. Since I already feel that way, I might as well put in the effort lol.
I'm actually thinking of starting a vlog showing my progress in destroying my comfort zone. I plan on taking up snowboarding and starting to use ziplines in the spring.
Who would watch it?
