So, my life has changed..........a lot. I have a medical problem I wish not to disclose at this time. The treatment is sever and can be very painful, I lost my last two shoots because this suddenly entered my life, uninvited and completely unwanted.
If you know me well you probably know I struggle with self-harm. I am having a hard time with that right now, and found myself getting stitched up from losing control. My parents kept me out of the mental ward by taking power of attorney over me.
I am confused and scared. I don't want a pity party and I will only post this information this once and plan to take it down quickly. I really love SG and wanted to produce a really killer shoot, but to the disappointment of me and the very talented MetroGlamor that will now have to be put on a the back burner.
My free account runs out around the end of Oct. I only hope to get a set in before them. I will NOT let this take over my life or my ambitions to be an SG. It just happens it took over a very important shoot for me. I will not be afforded the opportunity to work with him again for a long time probably.
I wish so bad to work with the staff photographer in my area but it just so happens that it is the coveted AlissaBrunelli,. She will only shoot with me through her Powder Puff Pin-Up's site, and the hopeful package is $500, I was truly considering spending the money to work with her, but in light of reent events, my funds seem to be more important for other things right now.
I hope to deliver a killer shoot for all of you before my membership runs out. If not, this wasn't meant to be for me. In my mind, if a staff photographer has NO interest in you then you probably aren't good enough anyway. At least that is how I feel about the situation.
I love all of you that have been though the last year and a half with me and I will still be here commenting and being myself. I won't let this take away ALL my fun in life. This will be the only post that is this serious on how I feel about everything I have to deal with. I am a private person and it is a lot to even write about it once.
all my love
Randi Dawn
If you know me well you probably know I struggle with self-harm. I am having a hard time with that right now, and found myself getting stitched up from losing control. My parents kept me out of the mental ward by taking power of attorney over me.
I am confused and scared. I don't want a pity party and I will only post this information this once and plan to take it down quickly. I really love SG and wanted to produce a really killer shoot, but to the disappointment of me and the very talented MetroGlamor that will now have to be put on a the back burner.
My free account runs out around the end of Oct. I only hope to get a set in before them. I will NOT let this take over my life or my ambitions to be an SG. It just happens it took over a very important shoot for me. I will not be afforded the opportunity to work with him again for a long time probably.
I wish so bad to work with the staff photographer in my area but it just so happens that it is the coveted AlissaBrunelli,. She will only shoot with me through her Powder Puff Pin-Up's site, and the hopeful package is $500, I was truly considering spending the money to work with her, but in light of reent events, my funds seem to be more important for other things right now.
I hope to deliver a killer shoot for all of you before my membership runs out. If not, this wasn't meant to be for me. In my mind, if a staff photographer has NO interest in you then you probably aren't good enough anyway. At least that is how I feel about the situation.
I love all of you that have been though the last year and a half with me and I will still be here commenting and being myself. I won't let this take away ALL my fun in life. This will be the only post that is this serious on how I feel about everything I have to deal with. I am a private person and it is a lot to even write about it once.
all my love
Randi Dawn
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hey girl, i just saw what you wrote on ass app. in my thread...
you made me blush! thank you so much for having this great opinion
we both just have to keep on trying and shoot more sets!
have a great day and feel kissed
humguy