tinyhobo

So I am a mental mess today.
I am going to let you in to a corner of my head that I really dont feel to comfortable talking about,but feel I should.
There is a party on Sat that I will be going to. I am scared of people. I am scared of wearing a bathing suit, I am scared of being boring. I have huge social issues that keep me inside alot. I was up most of Monday night worrying about how ugly I am and how much of a fatty I am and blah blah blah. Really just stupid shit that my head creates. Really, I dont feel that way, but the voice in my head does. So, last night Brian bought a great silly summer Revenge of the Nerds style outfit for the party and I bought a pink and black polka dot 2 piece. My heart is racing just thinking of meeting strangers in a fucking bikini. So yeah, I just had to through that out there.
Im very confident, but there is this part of me that is a wreck. meh

I am going to NJ Feb 22-25. It will be the Atlantic City area. If you are in the area and want to hang out. Let me know, i will try not to have a panic attack when we meet.

So. I need to make out with a hot momma like soon. My girlcrush list is piling up, for serious.

I am greatful for KikiBh,Martini,Morrigan,Jay_Blank,DeeDee,Tart
Brian
Silliness
A ton of my groups

Flattery will get you everywhere with some people, real human expression will get you my heart.
Have a great day guys.