tinheart

tonight, i seem to miss you more than ever. i desperately want to feel your touch, to hear your voice, to be ecstatic in the warmth of your embrace. the days have gone by, some for the better, some for the worse. today has been one of the worst. the feelings well up, and i can barely contain myself. did i take us for granted? perhaps. did i do everything i could? no. and tonight, the desire is strong, mingled with the confusion, the anger, the love. a cyclone in my heart. i want to punish you. to make you beg for my forgiveness. to make you feel low, only to bring you back up to me again. a baptism in the fire of me. but would it be enough? could it ensure that we won't be here again? i do not know. and that's what makes me afraid. i do not want to go through this again. i can not go through this again.