tindra

Sorry about the long absence between postings but I've been crazy busy and I did manage to injure myself again. Just over two weeks ago, I tripped over my cat and woke up in my bathtub. I ended up with a bump on my forehead that was bigger than my nose. No joke. and my nose is fuckin' huge! Since that time I've been off work (having a concussed person behind the wheel of a bus can be slightly dangerous), super dizzy, sensitive to lights, fainting, nauseous etc... It was so bad I ended up staying with my parrents for a week or so. I don't voluntarily go to my parents' house!! Now i'm back home, not working (the doctor says that my concussion was really bad and I can't go back to work for at least 4 weeks.) and I'm super confused all the time. A few days ago, I fell off the toilet...glamorous, I know and ended up slicing my back open so bad that I probably should have gone to the er and gotten stitches. I didn't though. I was in the er the weekend before last because I fainted and became unresponsive. They did a CT scan and my brain isn't bleeding but I have post concussion syndrom. There's no cure. I just need to rest and take it easy and not work. I'm just frustrated because my short term memory is shot. After I fell and sliced my back open, I ended up calling some close friends for comfort....except I called them each at least ten times telling them the same story. Now I have a notebook and I jot in when I last ate, who I called, what we talked about etc.... I just want to be better! Fuck! I hate being clumsy!!!!

Ps. They took out my tunnels and I couldn't get them back in. The next day I shoved some lubed tapered rings through my holes. It hurt like hell but I was at least back at 00. The rings fell out in the night and my ears were so painful I couldn't put anything through them. I'm waiting till they heal completely and then I guess I'll have to start the stretching process all over again. I'm about a 16g right now. Advice??? It also feels like I may have some scar tissue around both of the holes.