tina

I'm glad that you are doing what you need to do and that you are finally taking care of your needs but it doesn't mean that every night with every inhale and every exhale i'm not crying, that I'm not completely falling down inside. You were my center and the reason that I do my every day. You are what made me feel like I was strong enough to endure these stupid ass business trips that have broken us. I knew that I had your voice to hear and your body to envelop myself into when I got back home. Now I know that the cold lonely void that I feel on the road when sleeping on spare futons,in spare rooms,using spare keys, is the same void that will follow me "home" this time. Cuz it is just a spare bedroom if you aren't there to wrap my arms around.