tina

blaaaaaaaaaaah...i'm full of so many emotions right now and so much caffiene. i'm so excited that my set is up and that everyone has been so super sweet. some people in my life or out of my life are being super judgemental and pissing me off. i lost my job at the other art space i was working at as the youth program coordinator - which isn't really a bad thing - it will just give me more time to devote to femina potens - http://www.feminapotens.com and to my own writings and music. but its still this whole feeling of not being able to do everything and being rejected. even though i knew i didn't have time to run my own business and this entire youth program. rrrr.. my bed has been feeling so lonely at nites anymore and yet i don't really want anyone to fill any sort of void - i've lived and learned and know that it doesn't work that way. i'm leaving for ohio tomorrow nite. i'll be back in the midwest for the weekend. which is bound to shake my emotions even more. i've felt rather delicate lately. i'm going to try to see harrison again tonite as he will be back in mexico by next week when i return to sf. i'm reminded to live moment to moment.

i bought a stencil art piece of lain - one of my favorite animae characters. i'm gonna try to frame it before i leave.

my room is a mess and full of chaos like my mind. some of the best things come from chaos though. so i just try to embrace it.

there are so many fabulous things going on in my life at the moment. so many things and so many people and so many moments. i'm just trying to open my eyes wide enough to see it all happening.