tina

Heather fucking kills me over and over again. I found out tonight that she is dating someone new. I really did love her with all my fucking heart and now she won't even talk to me or answer my phone calls and I just feel like I want to crawl under my freaking bed and die. I just want to have a normal healthy life but I feel like I have this unresolve with her since we are not on good terms. I don't like being on bad terms with anyone. I can't stand it actually and now the person who I'm on bad terms with is the person that I care more about than anything in the world and what the fuck am I supposed to do? I just want her back in my arms and for everything to be ok. But the problem is that she was never ok with me and with who I am. She tells me that she was compromising who she was in order to be with me. She felt unattractive and bad about herself. I made the person I love feel like that even when I told her how amazing she was/is. But I wasn't around and now she isn't around and I feel like I've been gutted.