timtoxic

So, here I sit wallowing in self-pity about being unemployable. No matter how hard I try everything in my life goes to shit. I am finding myself drinking again while my kidneys are down to 45 percent. I dont care anymore since I didnt think I would make it passed 30. Now I am 35 years old and been married twice. I am a complete failure at love for I always find those who see me gullible. I am down to hearing how stupid I am from all those around me especially my parents. I lived two years on the streets when I was younger and said to myself that I would never return but yet here I am. The ex-wife is sitting on 14K I gave her because I was nice and cared. She wont give me the 2K she said she would along time ago. Greedy motherfucker. I ask of very few things in life. One is to be happy and the other is to find real love. The only thing that keeps me going is my kids but now since I cant support them financially I have failed them too. Anybody else out there wants to beat up on me while I am down. I know you are out there. At this point it wont matter.