timskin

Normally I welcome time off work...however when it's because a kind dentist man has drilled yet more sodding holes in my face..I don't!!

I am supposed to be looking for somewhere to live, planning Paris next week and getting through paperwork...instead I'm watching endless house buying programs and worrying over every little twinge!! What a woooooos!!hehe! I'm preying for a trouble free break but I'm kinda at the mercy of my face!

I can't wait for this all to be done with. It's amazing how debilitating tooth stuff can be. I haven't been out, haven't been exercising etc etc. All in all I feel shite! The past 7/8 weeks have been either having major treatment or getting over major treatments! AND I'm paying for this privedge!! hehe!

For the time being I think another cup of tea is in order. All this sitting has given me a lot of thinking time. Which I've needed - I havent felt like myself for a long time but there always seems to be too much happening to really sit and focus on it. IT's a theme that recurred a lot with the therapist I was talking to. I'm tempted to look for someone to talk to again actually, being able to openly discuss things and leave and the end of an hour was good.

Trying to make enough time to dig out what I want and how I can juggle my commitments in the future is tricky. I need to get a picture of the next stage for me and then try to sort it out. I know I defintely need to put aside time for my own wellbeing, there just doesnt seem enough time in the day. I also need to stop a long long long standing habit of worrying what other people think and allowing my judgements and wants to be dictated by them.

Anyone in their right mind would be excited about moving to a new city, leaving a job they despise, finding new friends and people and starting a degree....wouldn't they?!?! hehehehe!