So maybe just because you are used to something does not mean it is the right thing. Like, I ate meat for a long time, then I stopped and it was strange, a little hard, but really good in the long run. A rut. They are talking about it on Sex & the City so it must mean something.
I think my life has had major changes but obviously it needs an extreme fucking makeover. Like I need to start over. Join the Peace Corps or something and move to Cambodia.
Just when things start to seem better I realize I have been fooling myself and that is even sadder than before. Everything. A lifetime of lies, 3 1/2 years of denial. How sad is it that my cat may just be my only friend?
In American Beauty Annette Benning (I think) has that meltdown after showing the house and cries and then slaps the fuck out of herself and says to quit being a baby. I am on the verge of that. At least she wasn't poor.
Don't fucking tell me to cheer up. Don't fucking tell me it will get better. I cheered up and it got worse, so fuck you and your rainbow sunshine comments.
I think my life has had major changes but obviously it needs an extreme fucking makeover. Like I need to start over. Join the Peace Corps or something and move to Cambodia.
Just when things start to seem better I realize I have been fooling myself and that is even sadder than before. Everything. A lifetime of lies, 3 1/2 years of denial. How sad is it that my cat may just be my only friend?
In American Beauty Annette Benning (I think) has that meltdown after showing the house and cries and then slaps the fuck out of herself and says to quit being a baby. I am on the verge of that. At least she wasn't poor.
Don't fucking tell me to cheer up. Don't fucking tell me it will get better. I cheered up and it got worse, so fuck you and your rainbow sunshine comments.
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last_firstborn:
I've felt that way lately...almost signed up for the army lol. Backed off, realized I don't take orders too good. There is no way to cheer up or get over something, ya know? It also doesn't help to have people tell you they know what you mean. Especially strangers. But I will say...in American Beauty, everyone was pretty vapid, and paper thin. I've read a few of your entries..you don't give off the vibe Benning did. Anyway, hang tough...party hard...and be glad you at least have your cat. 
Right? I say fuck anybody you don't like, forget that shit, and enjoy yourself. Poor people can have fun too...buy cheap ingredients for mudslides, watch Sex in the City, and relax. 
Right? I say fuck anybody you don't like, forget that shit, and enjoy yourself. Poor people can have fun too...buy cheap ingredients for mudslides, watch Sex in the City, and relax. 
luis:
