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stephanie, i love you

Hopeless- Sage Francis

I played connect the dots with your beauty marks
And I ended up with picture perfect sheet music
I read your musical notes with a composer's eyes
And heard out song for the first time
My spine is still tingling, mental images of your fine tune
is what I've been nodding my head to lately
Every now and...
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stephanie, i love you

Hopeless- Sage Francis
I played connect the dots with your beauty marks
And I ended up with picture perfect sheet music
I read your musical notes with a composer's eyes
And heard out song for the first time
My spine is still tingling, mental images of your fine tune
is what I've been nodding my head to lately
Every now and...
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HOLY FUCKIN SHIT
it feels soo damn good to have my computer back to working order again
stupid OS problems grrrr
oh well all fixed now

its nice
im sitting at home, my roommate is out doing whatever, ive got the stereo turned up listening to records, burning CDs for everyone for christmas, since im too porr to buy anybody anything and i love it...
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wynne:
*does a little dance*

ARRR!!! I'm a cheeky monkey.
faerysoul:
Wanted to wish you a happy holiday. kiss
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so, yeah, um, ok
last night
was sooo punk rock i wanna puke
first
texas, your band wails.. count me highly impressed
sorry i didnt get to meet you
and i guess it was nice to meet jil, wynne and sophie,
but i cant really say i met them
there was an awkward introduction and then my job called me and i had to take...
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viciousdemalice:
You did admirably, I didn't truly expect anyone to get the digimon one, I'm sorry, that was a trick one. BUUUUUUTTTT, you didn't get all of them, so smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile Just for you, cause you got the most.

P.S. Lustra wrote Scotty doesn't know for Eurotrip and it's them singing it in the movie, not Matt Damon. God that movie fucking rocks, "Here's an interesting fact about Kracosia, YOU MADE OUT WITH YOUR SISTER!!!!" Frieking awesome.
sophie:
aww. so sad. but not really. growth, evolution, change... these are all good.

yeah, i never really thought of that show as an offical SGKC event. it seems like in my short two months that i have been a part of SGKC, every time "we" try to plan an "Event", it falls apart. i was thinking that if we all just casually showed up in the same place, it would be a step towards a dedicated SGKC event without being the real thing. but those were just my thoughts about the whole deal.

and honestly, i know that i, and perhaps one of the other girls, had an agenda. the four KC Suicide Girls want to be in a group set together, and we were going to meet at the Vexed show to plan it. but then it turned out that Shambles couldn't make it. so when Texas was done playing, we went to Shambles house. to get the planning done.

the silver lining to your cloud of loneliness on friday night, is that the four SG's now have a date, a time, a place, a theme, and almost a photographer worked out for the most badass group set the middle of the US has ever produced.

maybe that doesn't make you feel much better, i just want you to know that we had no intentions of being rude to you or making you feel bad.

i hope you have an awesome monday and i also hope that your weekend was amazing.

Sophie
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as i sit here updating, there are two extremely contrasting things going on.
1) my amazing, yet far away girl is dead tired and working on some stuff for school. im keeping her company and hopefully keeping her awake.
one of the things she is working on is a beautiful story, that she is writing about me.
it fills me so completely with pride, joy,...
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lollypopsnaggler:
Damn that's a long ass journal. Yeah it is sad to hear about dimebag. I wish I could go see all you sgkc's the 10th. I will have to go down there sometime, i feel left out. nice story.
genevieve:
Thank you...I really appreciate it...its just hard to see the forest for the trees sometimes...especially when the forest is dry and i cant afford to water it...

your gal is an excellent writer...was that a true occurence or just fiction based on your relationship?
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why is my finger always on the self destruct button?
it always seems that when things start going well for me
whenever i get close to someone
i start to freak out a bit?
ive been hurt a lot in the past, who hasnt
but i think i started sabotaging everything as a way to keep people from hurting me
i dont want to do...
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t3chmonkey:
Just for you we're forgoing my work because the next show-time after the 7 is 9:45, so there's a 7:45 out in Merriam. You in? You're probably at work right now. You probably have no idea I'm sending you this. I'm going to have to call you, aren't I? Yeah, I probably am. *Sigh* Me hate the telephone.
wynne:
Hahah, yeah, there he is above me again. wink

Hey, he's a sweetheart! biggrin
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i swear to you all that this is the last time i change my name


for a while anyway

so
i think this is the real representation of me
no more destroyer, etc etc etc

im in a damn good place right now
broke as fuck, but hey, im happy
how can that be bad
im totally in love
even tho she is in another...
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lollypopsnaggler:
Haha! It's hard for me to give you advice on that for a gift. But i'm sure you have good judgement. Don't worry I need to update more too. Take care.
t3chmonkey:
Broke as fuck, eh? Me too, hombre, me too.
Don't suppose you'd be down for cheap cheap entertainment this weekend? Videogames and whatnot? I've got your number, but my phone is out of minutes and I'm not going to be able to take care of that until Sat. morning, so if you want, I could give you a call via Slushmonkey's phone...
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ready for more???
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the tongue that cannot speak
the mind that will not think
lungs that refuse to breathe
a soul that defies time
love was once,
but never again
with the loss of time
and nothing to regain
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broken down
and cast aside
nwanted
unloved
these things
so deep down inside
emerging
after years of silence
the way i feel
magnified
by...
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wynne:
<3 Hugs!!!!!! Thank you. smile
sophie:
hello! thanks for saying whaddup in my journal. good stuff.

the weather here is inSANE.

mmm, and rock on, it is good to hear that the SGKC group does stuff once in awhile. maybe some day many of us will attend one function and it will be good. or maybe it will always be just seeing someone or other out or at a show and saying hey.

we'll see.

anyways, i am so glad to meet kansans!
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i love you all
im sorry i havent been posting much, but things have been wonky
still are to a degree, getting better

right now
its snowing outside
unusual in and of itself?
no
but what is, is the fact that not only is it snowing, its thundering and lightnigening (lol) outside too
oddish combination

ive been feeling a bit down
a bit nostalgic
a...
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slushmonkey:
Its my little brother's birthday today, he is turning 19. Atom and I were going to try and make sure it was a corrupting experience. But I will have Atom give you a call, so maybe we can meet up somewhere.
faerysoul:
Your poetry was really awesome--thanx for sharing. Just wanted to say hello and blow ya a kiss !
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sugar drop is my beloved
my button
i love her
but she is so far away
and i keep doing things to hurt her
i hate it
i dont want to hurt her anymore

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I know perfectly well I'm not where I should be
I've been very aware you've been patient with me
Everytime we break up
You bring back your love to me...
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devil_bitch:
Sorry about my little melt down there but it was really starting to piss me off. Thank you for not hating me and thinking that I am a crazy bitch. I just want you to know that I am around whenever you need to bitch, or cry, rant, whatever. I hope things work out for you. Take care.
armsxlikexblades:
robot

Don't you wish you were hardwired like that little emocon sometimes?


I do.

Good luck dude.