well, im feeling mostly better
i think im just gonig stir crazy
ive left my apartment like three times in the last two weeks
i just need to get better and get back to work.
ive also been suffering from a lack of sleep i think
of course im tired all the time,
but my slepe pattern is so messed up
that it doesnt feel like im getting any rest.

im still a little concearned about things with stephanie tho
its weird
i dont know what to say to her
our contact recently has been reduced to text messaging.
its rare that we get to talk on the phone or even on messneger
and i jsut dont know how to go about
sending her a text message that says what i want to say
i miss her a lot
i dont just wanna send her a msg saying
'hi i miss you i love you.. ' like i normally would
but i feel like i need to say something to her
i just dont know what
maybe ill just call her tomorrow

le sigh



*****
just a rant
im watching vh1 and when the fuck did tommy lee become a boy band guy?
his new video on and its crap
now, i cant stand tommy lee but wtf is this?
hes all like nsync crooning and shit
really kinda sad
so much for snortingfire ants with ozzy...