HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i dont know what to do
i am so fucking confused.
what should i do??????????
heres the deal
heres my situation, giveme your honest opinion.
you all know a bit about 'the girl' who i went out with a bit and then got the blow off from, right?
well, it turns out she wasnt blowing me off, is truly busy and still wants together, on the rare occasion that she has free time, and see if we can make this thing work.
heres the back story.
i have this girl that i have been talking to online. stephanie, she lives in calgary, pretty damn far from me.
we were starting to get close when i first met 'the girl' and stephanie, tells me that i should pursue this thing with the girl. it hurts her but she tells me to do it and i do, because, well, because i like the girl. so i go out with the girl a couple of times and things get very strained and tense between stephanie and i, not in a bad way, but in a way like, i would rather just be holding you but i cant, know what i mean?
so, then weeks go by and i dont hear from the girl and stephanie and i start getting closer and closer until we totally fall in love with each other. and then i get the blow off email from the girl and i think, ok, that is over, kinda sad about it, but i have this amazing girl who loves me dearly and im happy with that.
i wait a bit, then i reply to the girls email and tell her that i had fun with her and its a shame she didnt have time or want to go out with me anymore. i meant every word, cuz i like this girl but at the same time, i just wanted to run back into the arms of my canadian girl.
so, for weeks and weeks stephanie and i spend as much time as humanly possible together, on line, on the fone, i realize that i truly love this woman and that i could be happy with her for the rest of my life and she feels the same way. i can see it in her eyes when she looks into her cam at me. i get a little scared sometimes when i think of how much we love each other and how far away we are from each other. things are going so well with us, almost perfect, if you ask me.
than
yesterday
i got an email from the girl
saying that she wasnt giving me the big blow off and that she just wasnt going to have as much time to hang out with me as she would like, but she wants to spend as much time as she can with me.
and that is when my heart drops
because i want to go out with her again
i think
there was a spark between us and i think it could grow into something more
but then there is this amazing woman whom i love so much
and im thinking, how can i even be considering going out with another girl when i have everything i want, it just happens to be far away.
so last night, after one of the most perfect nights of my life on the fone with steph, i cant keep my mouth shut and tel her about the email from the girl.
we both get hurt, i am confused, she is crying and i dont know what to do
i dont want to hurt her more than i already have, but there is still a part of me that wants to pursue this thing with thegirl. im trying to figure out how i can even be considering doing this to someone i care about with every ounce of me,
i know this is an over-simplified version of whats happend, but what should i do????????
help me
guide me through this
le grand sigh
i feel like a traitor who has betrayed every word i have ever said to her, but i haven never said something to her that i didnt mean
whyis this even a decision?
god i need a smoke
help me kids, give me some perspective
please
i dont know what to do
i am so fucking confused.
what should i do??????????
heres the deal
heres my situation, giveme your honest opinion.
you all know a bit about 'the girl' who i went out with a bit and then got the blow off from, right?
well, it turns out she wasnt blowing me off, is truly busy and still wants together, on the rare occasion that she has free time, and see if we can make this thing work.
heres the back story.
i have this girl that i have been talking to online. stephanie, she lives in calgary, pretty damn far from me.
we were starting to get close when i first met 'the girl' and stephanie, tells me that i should pursue this thing with the girl. it hurts her but she tells me to do it and i do, because, well, because i like the girl. so i go out with the girl a couple of times and things get very strained and tense between stephanie and i, not in a bad way, but in a way like, i would rather just be holding you but i cant, know what i mean?
so, then weeks go by and i dont hear from the girl and stephanie and i start getting closer and closer until we totally fall in love with each other. and then i get the blow off email from the girl and i think, ok, that is over, kinda sad about it, but i have this amazing girl who loves me dearly and im happy with that.
i wait a bit, then i reply to the girls email and tell her that i had fun with her and its a shame she didnt have time or want to go out with me anymore. i meant every word, cuz i like this girl but at the same time, i just wanted to run back into the arms of my canadian girl.
so, for weeks and weeks stephanie and i spend as much time as humanly possible together, on line, on the fone, i realize that i truly love this woman and that i could be happy with her for the rest of my life and she feels the same way. i can see it in her eyes when she looks into her cam at me. i get a little scared sometimes when i think of how much we love each other and how far away we are from each other. things are going so well with us, almost perfect, if you ask me.
than
yesterday
i got an email from the girl
saying that she wasnt giving me the big blow off and that she just wasnt going to have as much time to hang out with me as she would like, but she wants to spend as much time as she can with me.
and that is when my heart drops
because i want to go out with her again
i think
there was a spark between us and i think it could grow into something more
but then there is this amazing woman whom i love so much
and im thinking, how can i even be considering going out with another girl when i have everything i want, it just happens to be far away.
so last night, after one of the most perfect nights of my life on the fone with steph, i cant keep my mouth shut and tel her about the email from the girl.
we both get hurt, i am confused, she is crying and i dont know what to do
i dont want to hurt her more than i already have, but there is still a part of me that wants to pursue this thing with thegirl. im trying to figure out how i can even be considering doing this to someone i care about with every ounce of me,
i know this is an over-simplified version of whats happend, but what should i do????????
help me
guide me through this
le grand sigh
i feel like a traitor who has betrayed every word i have ever said to her, but i haven never said something to her that i didnt mean
whyis this even a decision?
god i need a smoke
help me kids, give me some perspective
please
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Here is my advice. It's not great but here it is.
Internet relationships are great because you have the chance to meet someone who is more like you. You have a wider range to pick from. Here is the bad part.... DISTANCE. You can love someone to death but if you can't reach out and touch them and show it. I am going through the same thing. Although mine is in North Carolina. That is a little closer than Calgary. He is perfect for me but when you care for someone so much and you can't physically express that to them it kills you a little inside. There are only so much chatting online and phone calls you can do before it starts to drive you crazy. At least you have the luxury of meeting someone close to you that you can hang out with. So here are some options.
1. Move to Calgary.
2. Start hanging with the girl when you can and still talk to Steph. See what happens with the girl. If it is worth it, dump Steph.
3. Forget about the girl and devote yourself to Steph.
4. Forget about them both and find someone else.
5. Drink alot!!
I tell my boy in NC all the time to go after something better if it comes along. I love him but I am in KC 850 miles away. I want him to be happy and I am nowhere near ready to move to NC. Things happen the way that they are supposed to. It sucks but that is the way that it works.
[Edited on Sep 09, 2004 5:23PM]