can i just rewind today so that i can decide to stay in bed and not get up???
today sucks.
big time
first, the girl called a bit ago and said she was sick and wont be able to come tonight. also told me that now her Da will be in town starting saturday and the day he leaves, she is going out of town. so i wont be able to see her until she gets back. itll be like a month since the last i saw her. am i reading too much into this? should i just take it for what it is; shes a busy girl, and all this would be happening even if i werent around? probably, but my mind is telling me that shes just trying to avoid me and get rid of me.
second thing, the situation that made me post that big long fuck the other day has returned with a vengeance. i thought it was over, but apparently i was wrong. seems im wrong a lot lately. its a total fucked situation and it just wont let go of me.
i just wanna cry my self back to sleep and pretend that today has never happened.
i plan on getting totally hammered tonight. i think i deserve it.
im gonna go chain smoke the pack of cigarettes i just bought
today sucks.
big time
first, the girl called a bit ago and said she was sick and wont be able to come tonight. also told me that now her Da will be in town starting saturday and the day he leaves, she is going out of town. so i wont be able to see her until she gets back. itll be like a month since the last i saw her. am i reading too much into this? should i just take it for what it is; shes a busy girl, and all this would be happening even if i werent around? probably, but my mind is telling me that shes just trying to avoid me and get rid of me.
second thing, the situation that made me post that big long fuck the other day has returned with a vengeance. i thought it was over, but apparently i was wrong. seems im wrong a lot lately. its a total fucked situation and it just wont let go of me.
i just wanna cry my self back to sleep and pretend that today has never happened.
i plan on getting totally hammered tonight. i think i deserve it.
im gonna go chain smoke the pack of cigarettes i just bought
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Dude I am so sorry that things are going so fucked up for you. I understand all too well. I am learning to just breathe and let things work themselves out. Right now I am just at numb and teary eyed. Did have an excellent Bombay Sapphire martini straight up with 2 olives. The world is looking better.
I only accept cash, concert tickets, booze, drugs, or great sex as forms of payment. LOL.
I am holding out for clarity. For happiness. At least I have realized that there are cool people in KC thanks to SG!!!