as i sit here updating, there are two extremely contrasting things going on.
1) my amazing, yet far away girl is dead tired and working on some stuff for school. im keeping her company and hopefully keeping her awake.
one of the things she is working on is a beautiful story, that she is writing about me.
it fills me so completely with pride, joy,...
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1) my amazing, yet far away girl is dead tired and working on some stuff for school. im keeping her company and hopefully keeping her awake.
one of the things she is working on is a beautiful story, that she is writing about me.
it fills me so completely with pride, joy,...
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why is my finger always on the self destruct button?
it always seems that when things start going well for me
whenever i get close to someone
i start to freak out a bit?
ive been hurt a lot in the past, who hasnt
but i think i started sabotaging everything as a way to keep people from hurting me
i dont want to do...
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it always seems that when things start going well for me
whenever i get close to someone
i start to freak out a bit?
ive been hurt a lot in the past, who hasnt
but i think i started sabotaging everything as a way to keep people from hurting me
i dont want to do...
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t3chmonkey:
Just for you we're forgoing my work because the next show-time after the 7 is 9:45, so there's a 7:45 out in Merriam. You in? You're probably at work right now. You probably have no idea I'm sending you this. I'm going to have to call you, aren't I? Yeah, I probably am. *Sigh* Me hate the telephone.
wynne:
Hahah, yeah, there he is above me again. 
Hey, he's a sweetheart!
Hey, he's a sweetheart!
i swear to you all that this is the last time i change my name
for a while anyway
so
i think this is the real representation of me
no more destroyer, etc etc etc
im in a damn good place right now
broke as fuck, but hey, im happy
how can that be bad
im totally in love
even tho she is in another...
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for a while anyway
so
i think this is the real representation of me
no more destroyer, etc etc etc
im in a damn good place right now
broke as fuck, but hey, im happy
how can that be bad
im totally in love
even tho she is in another...
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lollypopsnaggler:
Haha! It's hard for me to give you advice on that for a gift. But i'm sure you have good judgement. Don't worry I need to update more too. Take care.
t3chmonkey:
Broke as fuck, eh? Me too, hombre, me too.
Don't suppose you'd be down for cheap cheap entertainment this weekend? Videogames and whatnot? I've got your number, but my phone is out of minutes and I'm not going to be able to take care of that until Sat. morning, so if you want, I could give you a call via Slushmonkey's phone...
Don't suppose you'd be down for cheap cheap entertainment this weekend? Videogames and whatnot? I've got your number, but my phone is out of minutes and I'm not going to be able to take care of that until Sat. morning, so if you want, I could give you a call via Slushmonkey's phone...
ready for more???
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the tongue that cannot speak
the mind that will not think
lungs that refuse to breathe
a soul that defies time
love was once,
but never again
with the loss of time
and nothing to regain
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broken down
and cast aside
nwanted
unloved
these things
so deep down inside
emerging
after years of silence
the way i feel
magnified
by...
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the tongue that cannot speak
the mind that will not think
lungs that refuse to breathe
a soul that defies time
love was once,
but never again
with the loss of time
and nothing to regain
__________________________
broken down
and cast aside
nwanted
unloved
these things
so deep down inside
emerging
after years of silence
the way i feel
magnified
by...
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wynne:
<3 Hugs!!!!!! Thank you. 
sophie:
hello! thanks for saying whaddup in my journal. good stuff.
the weather here is inSANE.
mmm, and rock on, it is good to hear that the SGKC group does stuff once in awhile. maybe some day many of us will attend one function and it will be good. or maybe it will always be just seeing someone or other out or at a show and saying hey.
we'll see.
anyways, i am so glad to meet kansans!
the weather here is inSANE.
mmm, and rock on, it is good to hear that the SGKC group does stuff once in awhile. maybe some day many of us will attend one function and it will be good. or maybe it will always be just seeing someone or other out or at a show and saying hey.
we'll see.
anyways, i am so glad to meet kansans!
i love you all
im sorry i havent been posting much, but things have been wonky
still are to a degree, getting better
right now
its snowing outside
unusual in and of itself?
no
but what is, is the fact that not only is it snowing, its thundering and lightnigening (lol) outside too
oddish combination
ive been feeling a bit down
a bit nostalgic
a...
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im sorry i havent been posting much, but things have been wonky
still are to a degree, getting better
right now
its snowing outside
unusual in and of itself?
no
but what is, is the fact that not only is it snowing, its thundering and lightnigening (lol) outside too
oddish combination
ive been feeling a bit down
a bit nostalgic
a...
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slushmonkey:
Its my little brother's birthday today, he is turning 19. Atom and I were going to try and make sure it was a corrupting experience. But I will have Atom give you a call, so maybe we can meet up somewhere.
faerysoul:
Your poetry was really awesome--thanx for sharing. Just wanted to say hello and blow ya a 
!
!sugar drop is my beloved
my button
i love her
but she is so far away
and i keep doing things to hurt her
i hate it
i dont want to hurt her anymore
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I know perfectly well I'm not where I should be
I've been very aware you've been patient with me
Everytime we break up
You bring back your love to me...
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my button
i love her
but she is so far away
and i keep doing things to hurt her
i hate it
i dont want to hurt her anymore
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I know perfectly well I'm not where I should be
I've been very aware you've been patient with me
Everytime we break up
You bring back your love to me...
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devil_bitch:
Sorry about my little melt down there but it was really starting to piss me off. Thank you for not hating me and thinking that I am a crazy bitch. I just want you to know that I am around whenever you need to bitch, or cry, rant, whatever. I hope things work out for you. Take care.
armsxlikexblades:
Don't you wish you were hardwired like that little emocon sometimes?
I do.
Good luck dude.
Don't you wish you were hardwired like that little emocon sometimes?
I do.
Good luck dude.
how are my little children of SG?
i hope youve all been well
despair is fleeting, but it also lingers
i love you all
and sugar drop, i know youll read this eventually,
i love you sooo much
cant wait to have you in my arms
more later
be well
-m
i hope youve all been well
despair is fleeting, but it also lingers
i love you all
and sugar drop, i know youll read this eventually,
i love you sooo much
cant wait to have you in my arms
more later
be well
-m
genevieve:
hmmm...who might sugar drop be...hmmm....oh and uh, new name eh? dont know how i feel bout that..
jill:
FINALLY!
music
its always been how i cope with shit
good and bad
always will be
I miss you
but I haven't met you yet
So special
but I it hasn't happen yet
You are gorgeous
but I haven't met you yet
I remember
but it hasn't happened yet
And if you believe in dreams
or what is more important
that a dream can come true...
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its always been how i cope with shit
good and bad
always will be
I miss you
but I haven't met you yet
So special
but I it hasn't happen yet
You are gorgeous
but I haven't met you yet
I remember
but it hasn't happened yet
And if you believe in dreams
or what is more important
that a dream can come true...
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armsxlikexblades:
www.timespentdriving.com
that's music for heartbreak.
that's music for heartbreak.
chrischick:
Very easily.
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viciousdemalice:
abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz
lollypopsnaggler:
Don't be silly, you know i don't speak spanish.
last rites
out cold
fear succumbs to apathy
apathy destroys
no fire no fear no color no sound
sound asleep, just asleep
dead asleep
anger gives in to apathy
no blood no anger no color no sound
cold death, just death
dead asleep
out cold
out cold
fear succumbs to apathy
apathy destroys
no fire no fear no color no sound
sound asleep, just asleep
dead asleep
anger gives in to apathy
no blood no anger no color no sound
cold death, just death
dead asleep
out cold
armsxlikexblades:
poetry
good
ug.
good
fire
hot
good
ug.
good
fire
hot
viciousdemalice:
The pain lasts but a short while, take care, you shall see the end when it comes.
VOTE!
GO VOTE TODAY
THERE IS NOTHING MORE IMPORTANT YOU WILL DO TODAY
VOTE LIKE YOUR LIFE DEPENDS ON IT
BECAUSE YOUR FREEDOMS DO
i love you all
-m
GO VOTE TODAY
THERE IS NOTHING MORE IMPORTANT YOU WILL DO TODAY
VOTE LIKE YOUR LIFE DEPENDS ON IT
BECAUSE YOUR FREEDOMS DO
i love you all
-m
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astasia:
ha ha ha...no im not goin nekid!!!!!! unless your wiling to pay my bail...even then....the farthest id go would be an imitation of the rose mcgawan dress from that one awards show where it was nothing but mesh and g. but id have paisties cus im a bit bigger than her and yeah.....it just wouldnt be right.....
but........
NO NEKID!!!!
but........
NO NEKID!!!!
genevieve:
Seriously, no one else needs it and i havent really had anyone say they really wanted it besides you...like i said, i'd absolutley hste to just put it by the dumpster. If I knew someone was coming for it, I would be more inclined to keep it inside so i can give to someone. Whom ever wants it first!
timeoftheeclipse:
what do you think it is?
your gal is an excellent writer...was that a true occurence or just fiction based on your relationship?