Today was one of those really negative days and i'm normally a very posi patient person but i am get to my wits end i really really am hanging for a holiday to clear my head and just get centered again i hate when i have to choose sleep over meditation and yoga and my friends and social circle for school and work . going to school 2 days and working everyother day but sunday The 6 day a week thing is starting to burn me out . I am rarely ever snappy at anyone but today i could not help it nor really cared ... I hate being like this because this is really not me and i hate it ..
I think my main reason was that i already owe money and money i thought i was getting paid won't be for my only 2 weeks off for the next 15 mths i am going to be broke as .. I am so lucky in a sense that i have a wonfderful b/f who will lend me money but am extremely independent and would rather be broke than borrow money but sometimes u have to give in to ur pride and just say fuck it ... So yeah fuck it ..
I'm so pathtic i'm actually have tears while i right this but it feels good to get it out and be a emo sook once in a while not everytime ..
On good note i got outta my speeding fine and it's only 2 weeks untill I have 3 days off in a row which will be out of this world .. I feel better just thinking about it ... Life is never as bad as in our minds that we think .. ahhh i feel like i'm calming down now ...
I think my main reason was that i already owe money and money i thought i was getting paid won't be for my only 2 weeks off for the next 15 mths i am going to be broke as .. I am so lucky in a sense that i have a wonfderful b/f who will lend me money but am extremely independent and would rather be broke than borrow money but sometimes u have to give in to ur pride and just say fuck it ... So yeah fuck it ..
I'm so pathtic i'm actually have tears while i right this but it feels good to get it out and be a emo sook once in a while not everytime ..
On good note i got outta my speeding fine and it's only 2 weeks untill I have 3 days off in a row which will be out of this world .. I feel better just thinking about it ... Life is never as bad as in our minds that we think .. ahhh i feel like i'm calming down now ...
powergirl5000:
I know how you feel. I was working 6 days a week for a long while. Two jobs. Ugh. I couldnt take it anymore. I started to wonder what I was living for. Was I living to work? Hell no. I hope you find peace!
adam3w:
Sorry you had a crappy day -- being overworked, overtired, and broke will usually do that to you. Good thing you're able communicate your frustration, or it would just get worse.... Hope you feel better!