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i finally saw sam on thrusday... his mother did pass on tuesday. i think he's still in shock a little as it was very sudden. she had had foot surgery a few weeks ago and a blood clot went to her lungs. it's so sad. he told me that he's regretting that i didn't get to meet her

i took him a care package of grocerys, stuff that would travel well. the funeral and burial and all are going to be up in gary where they're from. my mom also made him some peanut butter cookies cause they're his favorite .apparently i'm a feeder, lol. but that's what people do when a family member dies right? i got him some healthy snacks too, apples, bananas, and trail mix, and some stuff i know he'll actually eat. hah.

i just hope he'll be ok. he hasn't wanted to talk much... which i understand. he's probably living in his head right now. i just wish i could make it all better for him, make the pain go away...

when i went to see him i was the one crying. i joked that i was supposed to be the one holding him while he cried. not the other way around. it just hurts me so much that he's hurting.