timber_

so, i've been neglecting my cyber-bff, the internet, lately. i'm so fracking exhausted. who knew nannying was so exhausting!? well... i guess i did, but last time i did it full time-ish i was a few years younger, lol. props to stay at home moms, cause giving all your attention to a child all day long it ridiculously draining.

here's a few recent tidbits:
+ i'm so behind on reading blogs, and watching youtube videos.

+ i'm really behind on reading my magazines.

+ i need a swift kick, because i'm still eating like crap.

+ i am self sabotaging my diet because i've got such issues. like, really. ISSUES.

+ i'm hiding in my fat suit, and i think shedding it terrifies me for so many reasons. cause like, if i'm not the sassy fat girl... who am i? i took me so long to figure out who i thought i was, and now thats possibly all going to change.

+ but i do want it to change. i don't want to be unhealthy. i want to be healthy, happy, and fit. and getting this weight of is key for that.

+ i'm really seriously considering getting a counselor or a therapist. (i've even got the number for a lady, i'm just to chicken to call.) so, i guess i actually need 2 swift kicks, lol.