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Monday Mar 31, 2008

Mar 31, 2008
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I guess it is time to answer the requests from this blog. If you want to challenge me too, please be my guest. In fact, I encourage you to. I will see how many of these I can do today.

I just notice this is going to be a VERY long blog entry. I have put spoilers around each request to be more organized.

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First off: a request for a funny story about an ordinary event. Here I go:

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Today at work, the company's big wig were suppose to be in the office. As such we had to make accommodations for them. Both or our board rooms were off limits, because if we were to go in there we were most likely going to create a mess. This is because everyone at work is like 5 years old apparently. tongue

This morning we had to move our bagel meeting from the meeting room where we usually have it to the lunchroom. We brought in the toasters and we had to sit in uncomfortable plastic chairs. We were also subject to watching some guy from tech support play Fight Night: Round 3. Tangent!

So, why hasn't EA made Fight Night: Round 4 yet? Round 3 has been out for like 3 years now or so, and EA is usually all about putting out a regular yearly installments of all their games. I am looking at you NHL and Madden. So why didn't they do that with Fight Night?

End tangent! As usual we were talking about the weekend and the ski trip that half the company went on last Friday. I didn't go, because I just wanted to stay in the lodge and read a book. The organizers said that I couldn't do that. I was kind of pissed at the time, because they didn't really explain why they got a paid day off while other didn't. But I did make this argument to me that made sense: "If I went on the trip, I would be taking up a seat for somebody who did want to go and ski." Now if they explained it like that I wouldn't have as angry at the time. But anyways...

The guy playing Xbox, decided he had enough/it was time for him to get his ass back to work, so he goes and gets some water than he gets himself a bagel. Now, these bagels are for the developers/QA peeps at the company, and not for the admins/tech support. This guy being from tech support thought it was okay to take something, that probably was not for him without asking us if he could have one or not. What a jerk. Not that I was going to deny him one if he asked, but come on. You have to ask first dude. So rude.

Okay, now for the completely random part of the blog:

Anyways, another one of our Xboxs at work died again. frown Stupid RRoD. So, it will be another month or more before get that back. Must remember to get the hard drive because it has all of our Rock Band stuff on it. I haven't played Rock Band in two weeks... I AM GOING INTO WITHDRAWAL!!!!! mad Of course I can't play much because the big wigs are in town. Stupid big wig with no sense of fun or humor. mad

So that was my day...



Was this funny enough? whatever

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Topic: Something about my plans:

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To tell you the truth, I don't have plans, ever. I am flying by the seat of my pants most of the time. What am I doing this weekend? I know there is a b-day thing for one of my friends, but it is unknown what the thing is. It might be Rock Band (I HOPE biggrin ), or it might be drinks at a pub. I also have to laundry because I am going to run out of clean clothes by the weekend, and I don't want to go to the b-day thing with smelly clothes on.

I don't have any plans for the future. I barely know what I am going to do tomorrow. Wednesdays are the weekly tea get together with my friends. So, I guess I plan for that. I never plan my meals, I just go, what do I have to eat and what do I want to eat from what I have.

5 Years from now, my only plan/goal is to be alive.

10 years from now, older and still alive.

Most of my life has been like this.

Me in grade 12 (last year of high school here): YAY! I am about graduate from high school, with some good grades.

Somebody: So what are you going to do after high school?

Me: I don't know. University maybe?

Somebody: What will you take at university?

Me: I don't know. Something with math. I like math. I do calculus in my sleep. (Really, it was just the numbers moving about doing integrations.)

(Skip to end of high school)

Me: Hmm... maybe I should register for that university thing? Okay, lets take a look. What should I take? There is math, or science, or engineering. Engineering sounds like fun. Wasn't there an episode of Sliders are engineers that I watched recently? Yeah. That sounds good, go with that.

(Skip to end of first year of engineering)

Me: Oooo. This new Software program sound like fun. I really liked that programming course. Besides that, my highest marks were in kinematics and linear algebra. Maybe I can get a job as a game programmer. Maybe at EA in Van-city. biggrin

(Skip to end of third year)

Me: Internship? Yeah, I guess I will try to go on one of those.

(Skip to after I got laid off from my internship)

Me: Well, I can't get my internship status on my degree, what should I do for the next six months? I should learn how to drive a car. Yeah! And maybe take some classes in the spring/summer. Lighten that course load in my last year.

(Skip to after graduating from University)

Me: I need a job.

Somebody: Sorry, we are out of jobs, come back again later.

Me: Oh. Okay.

(Skip ahead 8 months)

Me: Man, playing games all day and living with your parents is stupid. I don't think I left the house in a month.

A friend of a friend: Do you want a job at the private school where I work.

Me: Sure.

(Skip ahead 4 months)

Me: Well, I just got laid off from the private school. At least I know not to go into the help desk/tech support area. Stick with programming. Well, back to the video games for me.

(Skip ahead 6 months)

Me: Well, I have been looking for programming jobs, and mooching of the rents. Yay!

Previous employer: Do you want a job with us?

Me: Sure.

(Skip ahead 6 months)

Me: I should like this work right now. I believe in what they are doing and the product. I think this is great.

EA dudes: Yeah. You want an interview with us in Van-city?

Me: OH GOD YES!!!!! Hey current employer?

Employer: Yes?

Me: Ah, my grandma died (whispers 2 years ago), I am going out to BC for the funeral.

Employer: Okay.

Me: *sighs* (whispers he bought it)

(Skip ahead to after the EA interview)

Me: Well, I fucked that up. Why? Because I was not prepared. I have been to slack and not studying what I needed to know. I planned it wrong.

(Skip ahead about 2 years)

Me: Hmmm... my company is not doing to well. They have laid off some people and I don't believe in the company anymore. I should find another job. I will take 3 weeks off in October/November and try to find one.

(Skip ahead to end of September)

Employer: Yeah, we are shutting the company down.

Me: YAY! Vacation time!

(Skip ahead past three weeks of play WoW)

Me: That was fun. But I need a job soon this time. I have a house and car and bills to pay. I ain't moving back in with my parents.

Currently Employer: Hey. You want a job with us?

Me: Sure.

So that is my life story. biggrin Notice the lack of planning. wink I also noticed that videos games came up a lot. Do you think I have a problem?



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Next up: Schemes:

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I am always thinking. I don't know if this counts as scheming but I will go with it. tongue

As for actual schemes, I am going to say those are like plans but have more "Wiley Coyote" feel to them. Like turing the Wiimote into a actual tv remote, or coming up with ideas to take over the world. My brain works on this almost all the time, but I never remember half my schemes. Mostly because they are from entertainment value, as you peeps from the silliness board probably already know. It is like day dreaming to me. biggrin

As for current schemes, I have planted in the some people's head to have this year's Christmas party at Chcuk E. Cheezes. biggrin That would be awesome! biggrin



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Next: Hopes:

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Well, if by hopes you mean wishful thinking, then I do that a lot. I always wish people a good day. Most of the time if I leave a comment on somebody's blog, I will usually end it with "I hope you have a good day" or "Have a great day" or "I hope you get better soon". I hope for the health and well being of human kind.

Why would I do such a thing? Well, I believe there is good in all of us. I always hope for the best out of people. The only way that you are going to give your best is if you are at your best. So, I hope for you good healthy, a great day, good luck. If you have these good things happen to you, I hope that you will go out and spread those good feelings with others.

I also have the belief that there is something I can learn from everyone. You might teach me a new skill, new information, a new view point on life, a thing about the universe that I was unaware of, something about humanity, something about myself. So, I hope to be your student and I will learn.

And I hope that I will overcome my fears... which leads to the next segment....



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Next topic: Fears:

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Top 5 fears:

At #1 Death:

Ever since I started contemplating what life is when I was 5, I have been afraid of death. There were times where I would be in my bed just thinking about what would it be like if I don't wake up in the morning. Just going into the blackness and not coming back. That scares me... to the point where I freeze up and must change the topic in my head. I rather give a speech in public nude than die. This is also the reason why I would never take another person's life. I would do anything to save another person's life, even risk my own, which is odd, when I think about it.

At #2 Intimacy:

This is one that discovered recently. I have found many factors that have lead to this condition. Being hurt in the past, being completely isolated from people, being an introvert is probably not helping much, but it is not like I can change that or want to. I am afraid of intimacy in both an emotional as well as a physical level. It is not like I have sexually abused as a child, because I haven't, or had a bad experience with sex, because I have none. Maybe it comes from the fact that I think I am not good enough. How can I say that? Well, I have never been in a relationship, and I have met a least 10 000 people thus far in my life. And none of them have thought of me worthy enough to have a relationship with. As I put it one time, I am the sidekick, I am here for the comic relief and to help out the heros in when they need help. I don't get the girl, I get the laughs. I am cool with that, or maybe that is just my defense in my mind so I don't get hurt, but I also don't risk. I can go all day on this.... but I have other things to do....

This fear is one that I want to over come but have no idea where to start on overcoming it.....

At #3 Women:

What can I say, they intimidate me. Most are beautiful on some level, and I have long thought of them as superior to men. They can do anything a man can do plus give birth. That seems like the superior gender to me. As such, I have always treated them differently than guys. Plus it takes me a longer time before I comfortable around them.

This one would be nice to overcome... I think I just need more experience with socializing with girls.... that sound right, right?

At #4 Loud people:

This is more of my introvertism in action. Sudden loud noises make me uncomfortable.

And At #5 Failing:

This is more of a worry than a fear. I have always not liked failing. It pisses me off that I try so hard to not let anyone down. That is why I have always tried my best in school, sports, work. I don't want to have a rep as a failure. Bad rep to have in my book.

One last note on Fears:

I had a dream last week. It started off with me in the Super Smash Bros game, because I am playing that a lot. I was going about the stage collecting stickers, because I had to collect them all. When the round was over, I was back in home and I was going into my kitchen, as I passed my back door, I felt a presence at the door. I looked out the window of the door and saw a shadowy presence. I didn't know who this woman was, because I couldn't see their face, and I started screaming in my dream. I put my hand against the door and was trying to "will" the "woman" away. I was then pushed back to the floor as the "woman" opened the locked door and came into my home. I started to crawl away into my living room as the "woman" entered. She look from the kitchen to where I was and "face" looked directly at me. That was when I woke up.

When I woke up, I was warm all over, in a way I have never felt before. It was weird.

On analyzing the dream, I initially thought the person at the door was woman. This would support my fear of women and letting a unknown woman in the where I live would support my fear of intimacy. But what if I was wrong about it being a woman. I thought it was a woman because "she" skinny and had shoulder length hair. I couldn't see her face so even when "she" entered my home. The shadow also was about the same height as me.

So, what if it was me that was at my door. I came to this theory the following morning. As I was getting ready for work, I turned on my kitchen light. When standing by the door to go outside, there is a shadow projected onto my broom closet door. The shadow, was skinny and had shoulder length hair. It also appeared to be the same height as me. So what if it was me at the door? Why was I afraid of letting me in? What does the shadow represent? This is most confusing brain, what are you trying to tell me.



Okay, time for a break... and supper... and relaxing.... I will get to the other requests later.

If you would like to make a request please be my guest. biggrin

Have a great day readers! biggrin

PS Sorry for any grammar or spelling mistakes, there is a lot to proof read here and I am lazy.

VIEW 9 of 9 COMMENTS
nixon:
Thanks for the support on my new set!
Apr 5, 2008
lise:
This blog (and the original idea, for the challenge) was a great idea. I seriously got to know you in this!
Apr 15, 2008

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