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Time for another update:

Umm....

Work still is well... work. *sigh* It feels like I am playing a game of Big Brother or something, but the prize at the end is still you are unemployed.

Personally, nothing has really changed. But at least I feel okay about my situation again.

There is one thing I have noticed over the past week or so, my values for a girlfriend/lover/whatever have certainaly changed. For starters, 5 years ago I had a list of qualities I wanted in my lover:

- likes to drive
- is smarter than me
- I can clasp my arms around her
- funny/compatible sense of humour
- is able to write well... surpremely well

I added the likes to drive quality because 5 years ago I was just started to drive. I hated it. It was get me soooo stressed out. But now, I am offerring people to drive them around when ever I get a chance. Why? Maybe because driving does not stress me out as much. I have gotten use to doing all the checking in the mirrors and over my shoulder, that it doesn't make me nervous anymore. Plus I think I want to be more involved with people that I will offer my driving services when ever I can, or maybe it is the believe that if you are sociallizing with me, you are family. As such I will treat you like any member of my family. Needless to say, that is not a quality I am look for in a woman anymore. It is okay if exists, but it is not a must.

I added the the smarted than me and the ability to write because I wanted my childern to be smart. How so you ask? Well, I believe that all the intelligence that anyone has comes directly from your mother. That right ladies. You give your childern their base power. So if you go to a sperm bank to make a baby, forego the doctors, engineers, scientists and pick an athlete or hot guy. That aside, I wanted these qualities passed on to my child(ern) because I wanted to give them the best chance of success when they go to school. If they choose not to use their brain, that is cool, but at least I wanted to make sure they had the power. But now, with me being almost 27 (10 days away) and wanting to have childern before I am 30, I am not seeing this happen. There are too many facts that say I won't be able to do it. I will have to build a relationship, earn her trust, get married (probably), have a honeymoon for a year, then kids. As of right now, my estimates to make this happen are too large todo in the next 3 years. As such, I am giving up my dream of having kids. As such, it really doesn't matter if the woman I am with is smarted than me or can write well. As long as we can communicate that is all I ask for.

So I guess I am left with now:

- is funny
- I can clasp my arms around her

Great list of requirements huh?

Sorry for the above, mishmash of sentences in to paragraphs, I didn't feel like separating all that crap.

Until 15 comments from now, have a great day readers!