tilpacer

Nov 7

Okay, I have check the dating site no response. Hmmm Why would he not respond with something anything? He is on my friend list What the hell is going on?

Carried hasnt responded to my apology. I am getting really scared. I dont want to lose the friend. She means too much to me to let her go. But what if she doesnt respond, for a long, long time.

Let me look at her ability to forgive. I only know one person she has forgiven. Sam. Carries girlfriend cheated on her with Sam. Carrie was so mad that she didnt talk to him for a year after she got back and found out. But she lives with Sam, she sees him everyday.

So lets look at my situation:

- She is mad at me, really, really mad. Is what I did worse than having sex with her girlfriend? If it isnt, she will forgive me, right?
- I dont see her everyday. In fact if I dont try something, she might never see me again. I will be out of sight and out of mind.
- I need her. I need her friendship, her support. She doesnt need me. I am only one person in a crowd of her friends. She is the only close personal friend I have. I have no idea what this will mean to her.
- She has all the power right now. She is the only one who can save me and this friendship. I hope she realizes this. She has all the cards and can do whatever she wants.

I am going to lose my friend arent I?