I am being totally stupid here. I should just apologize for my behavior for the past week.
I write to Carrie:
Dear Carrie,
I am totally sorry for the past week. I have been acting really stupid. I am sorry for making you feel uncomfortable. I hope you can forgive me for my actions. I am now 100% angst free! 
I might be able to make it up to you with some bubble tea.
I just have a really bad feeling that I was losing you as a friend. I didnt want that. I mean who is going to steal my car? Who am I going to play Magic with?
I have stopped looking at your journal back on Nov 4. I dont think it is right that I should get an inside view of you when you wont talk to me. I will not look until you give me permission again.
Your Friend,
Til
- Any communication is better than no communication.
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I also wanted to ask what Jerry was up to. I want to know what he is doing and I want to focus on something else for a while. I write him a message on the dating site:
Hey Jerry,
How are things going? I havent talked to you in while, just wanted to see what is up.
Later daze
Til
