Okay.... Update:
Guess what kidies? My ribs started hurting yesterday, AGAIN! So, I was at the doctor's today. They ran some simple tests and concluded that this was being caused either by over exhurting my lung muscles, or stress.
Well, I have not exercised in like ***** years, and haven't done anything too physical during this period. I can rule that out. So it must be stress, but what oh what could be causing the stress?
It is not work. I have not been stressed about work lately. Not since January.
It is not my home life. I don't live with anybody. I am totally cool with my family. I totally love those guys. No worries on this front.
It is not money troubles. I take good care of my house, have all my bills paid and have some backup money to boot.
It is not the drugs. I have always been clean. Even from alochol. I haven't taken any sort of drug since I got my wisdom teeth removed 4 years ago. Straight edge for life.
The only stress I can think of is the thing I can't talk about.
As per doctors orders, I have to figure out what is wrong with my life and fix it.
So, I think I will have to talk about the thing I am ordered not to talk about. I am going to do this for my own health.
I have thought about how I was going to tell people what this is. At my company, when ever we have a failure we identify it and come up with a prevention for the failure. The old saying of "if you don't learn for history, you are doom to repeat it," looms to my mind during this time too.
So, I think I am going to be posting in my journal a day by day account of what happened. Starting next Wednesday (March 29), I am going to be posting introductions to the major players in this saga. Thurday I will give as much back ground info about this story as I can. Then next Friday and for the next 31 days, I will start the daily posting about what happen. The things I did, what I was thinking on each of the days, the lessons I learned during that time frame.
All I ask of you faithful readers is to not post until I am done. Then I am going to ask what it was that I did wrong. It could be in my thought process, my actions that I took. I will also ask you to come up with a preventions so will never happen again. You will also get a chance to judge me for what I did. If you stop reading this journal, I am okay with that.
If you don't adhear to the no posting rule, that is okay. I won't yell at you or anything.
I also ask you ask all those you know to start reading this journal too. The more input I can get, the better.
I am going to let the person who order the silence know about it this. If they feel the need to veto my actions and keep me silent, they can.
Agreed? Good.
Now have a great day readers!
Guess what kidies? My ribs started hurting yesterday, AGAIN! So, I was at the doctor's today. They ran some simple tests and concluded that this was being caused either by over exhurting my lung muscles, or stress.
Well, I have not exercised in like ***** years, and haven't done anything too physical during this period. I can rule that out. So it must be stress, but what oh what could be causing the stress?
It is not work. I have not been stressed about work lately. Not since January.
It is not my home life. I don't live with anybody. I am totally cool with my family. I totally love those guys. No worries on this front.
It is not money troubles. I take good care of my house, have all my bills paid and have some backup money to boot.
It is not the drugs. I have always been clean. Even from alochol. I haven't taken any sort of drug since I got my wisdom teeth removed 4 years ago. Straight edge for life.
The only stress I can think of is the thing I can't talk about.
As per doctors orders, I have to figure out what is wrong with my life and fix it.
So, I think I will have to talk about the thing I am ordered not to talk about. I am going to do this for my own health.
I have thought about how I was going to tell people what this is. At my company, when ever we have a failure we identify it and come up with a prevention for the failure. The old saying of "if you don't learn for history, you are doom to repeat it," looms to my mind during this time too.
So, I think I am going to be posting in my journal a day by day account of what happened. Starting next Wednesday (March 29), I am going to be posting introductions to the major players in this saga. Thurday I will give as much back ground info about this story as I can. Then next Friday and for the next 31 days, I will start the daily posting about what happen. The things I did, what I was thinking on each of the days, the lessons I learned during that time frame.
All I ask of you faithful readers is to not post until I am done. Then I am going to ask what it was that I did wrong. It could be in my thought process, my actions that I took. I will also ask you to come up with a preventions so will never happen again. You will also get a chance to judge me for what I did. If you stop reading this journal, I am okay with that.
If you don't adhear to the no posting rule, that is okay. I won't yell at you or anything.
I also ask you ask all those you know to start reading this journal too. The more input I can get, the better.
I am going to let the person who order the silence know about it this. If they feel the need to veto my actions and keep me silent, they can.
Agreed? Good.
Now have a great day readers!
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agenda:
sounds like something intense...
fenway:
lack of sleep sucks! i make up for it whenever i can--in the car is my favorite little spot, preferably if the sun is shining. mum's the word until you finish your story.
