1. sunkist_sudafed left today. Dropping him off at the airport left an eery deja vu feeling. Years & years of dropping my dad off at the airport while my mom & two siblings would cry all the way home has a way of doing that to a person. I think I've finally numbed myself from the abandonment feeling, because I didn't shed a tear today. I only hope that someday he'll find work around home, so that for once in my life I can just have a normal family life. I don't ever want Lennon to have to deal with the issues that I had to deal with.
2. Ever since I've given birth I'm continiously thinking about getting drunk & smoking cigarettes. I bought a bottle of vodka last week, but I have yet to crack it open. I keep thinking one shot of vodka is going to make me completely inileated and I won't be able to look after poor Lennon. I almost bought a pack of smokes today, but for some fucking reason I was too scared to ask the cashier. It just didn't seem right when I had a 2 week old baby in my arms, but if I have to watch one more TV show where someone is lighting up I just might cave in.
3. My kooch better heal up as soon as fucking possible because I'm not digging this whole celibacy lifestyle. It has one more week to heal... all bets will be off when sunkist_sudafed gets home next week!
4. I was less than impressed with the Juno's this past weekend. I don't know why I continue to watch these fucking music awards, they always piss me off. The whole industry is fucked. I mean, how would you feel if you were Gord Downie, playing with the Hip for 24 years and you get beat out by a bunch of fucking punks from Billy Talent, not once but twice. Everything is about marketing and sexualizing teenage girls... it's just not about the music anymore and it fucking inferiates me.
5. The fact that it's snowing outside makes me feel all warm & fuzzy... I'm not ready to say good-bye to winter just quite yet. On that happy note, I will stop because I sound much more bitter in this little blurb than I really am!
2. Ever since I've given birth I'm continiously thinking about getting drunk & smoking cigarettes. I bought a bottle of vodka last week, but I have yet to crack it open. I keep thinking one shot of vodka is going to make me completely inileated and I won't be able to look after poor Lennon. I almost bought a pack of smokes today, but for some fucking reason I was too scared to ask the cashier. It just didn't seem right when I had a 2 week old baby in my arms, but if I have to watch one more TV show where someone is lighting up I just might cave in.
3. My kooch better heal up as soon as fucking possible because I'm not digging this whole celibacy lifestyle. It has one more week to heal... all bets will be off when sunkist_sudafed gets home next week!
4. I was less than impressed with the Juno's this past weekend. I don't know why I continue to watch these fucking music awards, they always piss me off. The whole industry is fucked. I mean, how would you feel if you were Gord Downie, playing with the Hip for 24 years and you get beat out by a bunch of fucking punks from Billy Talent, not once but twice. Everything is about marketing and sexualizing teenage girls... it's just not about the music anymore and it fucking inferiates me.
5. The fact that it's snowing outside makes me feel all warm & fuzzy... I'm not ready to say good-bye to winter just quite yet. On that happy note, I will stop because I sound much more bitter in this little blurb than I really am!
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Oh, by the way though, if you go see it in the theater, be sure and leave the little one with someone else. The first part (Robert's) is quite gory and the noises might be frightening. That and since it's really two movies stuck together it's really long!
Quiting smoking is really hard... i hear. I don't smoke lol but i have friends that do that are trying to quit. When i was a kid my brother smoked and i was miserable around him. I never wanted to be around him because i hated the smell....and to this day i've never smoked. Of course you're "mom" so Lennon will obviously love to be around you regardless but don't torture the lil guy! Hang in there, you can do it! I have faith in you.
and that's kinda sad, because it's so not true. My client on Friday was doing boudoir with one nude set and one topless set, for her future husband....she's been married beforfe and has 3 kids. and the photos are fabulous.
Whatever childbirth did to your body, it was well worth it I'm sure. But don't let it stop you from thinking you're sexy. You are now, you were before, and you'll always be sexy.