PEEK A BOO!!!!!
yeah, MIA. missin in action. actually I haven't been missing in action just too much shit interfering with my world at once. Incredible amounts of dissonance(sp?) and discord in my world. I couldn't even put it all into words. I suddenly feel like a fish out of water. NY has always always made me feel this way. yeah, I'm back in NYC bitches!!!!!!! I'm not really that happy about it. I was just going broke in cali. ok I was broke and didn't want to be homeless and shit so I moved back here to get myself in order again. I had no one to help me over there. I was pretty much fucked.
AND NOW IN NYC:
I'm moving a block away from where I used to live before I left. hahaha! too funny!
I had a job interview last thursday and he called me back that same day to offer me the position. I started today and so far it's blah. They are very strict. I thought it would be a more relaxed environment being creative and all but i guess business is business and that always means uptight assholes (not everyone of course).
I feel very out of place though. I can't be "me". I have to hide behind this corporate conservative mask which is the antithesis of me. I can't surf the net so freely (bummer) and I'm the busiest I've ever been in a job. I wanted to fucking kill someone by lunch time. I thought I was going to have an anxiety attack or some shit 
. The person training me is god awful at it. I'm pretty much on my own but she's my 'partner' so I have to work with her. DID I mention how important INDEPENDENCE is for me in the work place??? I don't know how to work jointly with someone. I guess I'll have to learn or quit! and I'm no fucking quitter!!!
I'm grateful though. Even though I'm seemingly doing a lot of bitching here
It could be a hell of a lot worse and dammit I'm lucky! (Blisters and all! )
It's fucking rough in this job market!
MY LAST ENTRY WAS ALMOST MY LAAAAST ENTRY. But, I'm back. sorta.
I'll try to be on as much as possible. I'm moving this weekend so I'm not sure when I'll be hooked up to the net again. hopefully no later than a week later.
Thanks for reading!!!
there's so much more I want to say. but i'll end my madness now. muahahahaha!
yeah, MIA. missin in action. actually I haven't been missing in action just too much shit interfering with my world at once. Incredible amounts of dissonance(sp?) and discord in my world. I couldn't even put it all into words. I suddenly feel like a fish out of water. NY has always always made me feel this way. yeah, I'm back in NYC bitches!!!!!!! I'm not really that happy about it. I was just going broke in cali. ok I was broke and didn't want to be homeless and shit so I moved back here to get myself in order again. I had no one to help me over there. I was pretty much fucked.
AND NOW IN NYC:
I'm moving a block away from where I used to live before I left. hahaha! too funny!
I had a job interview last thursday and he called me back that same day to offer me the position. I started today and so far it's blah. They are very strict. I thought it would be a more relaxed environment being creative and all but i guess business is business and that always means uptight assholes (not everyone of course).
I feel very out of place though. I can't be "me". I have to hide behind this corporate conservative mask which is the antithesis of me. I can't surf the net so freely (bummer) and I'm the busiest I've ever been in a job. I wanted to fucking kill someone by lunch time. I thought I was going to have an anxiety attack or some shit . The person training me is god awful at it. I'm pretty much on my own but she's my 'partner' so I have to work with her. DID I mention how important INDEPENDENCE is for me in the work place??? I don't know how to work jointly with someone. I guess I'll have to learn or quit! and I'm no fucking quitter!!!
I'm grateful though. Even though I'm seemingly doing a lot of bitching here
It could be a hell of a lot worse and dammit I'm lucky! (Blisters and all! )
It's fucking rough in this job market!
MY LAST ENTRY WAS ALMOST MY LAAAAST ENTRY. But, I'm back. sorta.
I'll try to be on as much as possible. I'm moving this weekend so I'm not sure when I'll be hooked up to the net again. hopefully no later than a week later.
Thanks for reading!!!
there's so much more I want to say. but i'll end my madness now. muahahahaha!
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throb:
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unique3:
come back soon! miss you!