tigress

Sometimes I just want to lock myself away and never have to come out and deal with the bullshit of the world.
I am so fucking ...i can't even begin..
Upset? yeah that's it.

I'm tired of doing shit for everyone and not myself.
I'm tired of fucking caring and bending over every which way just because..
I'm tired of the heartache that comes with caring too much
I'm tired of the shit
I'm so tired and maybe i'm through with being me

I don't want to change my heart but some people are really making me want to.
sorry.
I need to vent.
This is a rarity.
I'm normally fucking queen of happy happy joy joy. but shit. Don't tread on me. Don't smile at me then stab me in the back.

Today i am ferocious. I have a headache.
I should go outside for some air or something. I'm gonna go running to blow off some steam.
and hopefully just pass out afterwards.



*UPDATE*
I'm feeling quite rejuvinated and refreshed after my 2 mile run. I just shouldn't have done it on an empty stomach. I'm gonna stuff my face now.
Emotionally I'm not so screwy anymore. I was so overwhelmed. I'm a spaztastic girl when it comes to friendships. I take that shit seriously. I've done some pretty far out things for friends in the past. I'm not very good at dealing with no good lying backstabbers. oh well. life goes on.
Thanks for the words.

hahaha! Tiger STyle!


I may put this pic in my journal everyday for a while. I absolutely love it for some reason. animal sex.