I'm so beat down I can't even write. Everything seems dreeeamy....look at the colors 
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ativan101:
Sorry, I don't know if you saw what i wrote before I signed off......but, I gotta pack a overnight bag........I'm driving up to The Mohegan Sun....I gotta check in, get ready & meet my friends @ 8:30 for dinner @ MICHAEL JORDAN'S STEAKHOUSE.............mmmmmmmm, steak!!!!!!! Can't wait!
I'll check in on you later.........
really nice talking to you.......
have a good evening & be safe!!!!!!
bye luv~
I'll check in on you later.........
really nice talking to you.......
have a good evening & be safe!!!!!!
bye luv~
ativan101:
D- "I'M OUT.............SEE YA"!!!!!!!!!!!!!
three journals in one day. does that make me pathetic or ?
I've gone from happy to not so happy.
I had a date then I didn't.
I sit here with my thumb up my booty wondering how this perfect week could just end on a low note? Well, shit happens and life goes on. Thanks to avitan101 for brightening up my night. You're an...
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I've gone from happy to not so happy.
I had a date then I didn't.
I sit here with my thumb up my booty wondering how this perfect week could just end on a low note? Well, shit happens and life goes on. Thanks to avitan101 for brightening up my night. You're an...
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ativan101:
I'm home......it was an uneventful 2 + hours..........I'd eat more Twinkies but I ate them all, so I suppose I'll paint my nails & call it a night! Hope you two are having a good time!!!!!
Night!!!!!
Night!!!!!
eleph666:
Why are things ever so difficult, why not be something else than what they are? Could my eyes open to the light or are the stars all I'll ever see in your eyes? Nothing is sacred but so beautiful and tainted. I breathe this out
NOTE: I only post songs when I am A -moping over some shit or B - if I'm just plain old depressed. In this case it's A.
Hey you, out there in the cold
Getting lonely, getting old
Can you feel me?
Hey you, standing in the aisles
With itchy feet and fading smiles
Can you feel me?
Hey you, dont help them to bury...
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ativan101:
Hell yeah......that would be
"THE FOURESOME COMING STRAIGHT TO YOU IN 2004"......
LOL.........shit maybe I oughta go take another shower...........oh boy.......
Today is a blah day.........I don't feel like doing anything now after stuffing my face w/ those nasty ass twinkies. I know if i take a hot shower, I'll be no good for the rest of the night. So, I suppose I'll remain frustrated & just a tad funky!!!!!
Oh yeah, I've heard that before.....oh, i live right off the highway & I end up in Queens somewhere asking some guy named Sal who's driving a camaro for directions! My friends hate when I do that.....I'm always asking people for directions.....I hate being lost. But it's funny though I HATE WHEN PEOPLE ASK ME FOR DIRECTIONS!!!!!!!! especially tourist, I LOVE FUCKIN W/ THEM!!!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!!
you know......excuse me is this the way to the Empire State Building......& you turn them around & have them heading over to the West Side somewhere!
Yeah I know I'm Going To Hell.......I've Excepted My Fate!!!!!!!!
Ohhhhhhhhh sure now you guys wanna hang out & I can't even invite myself along cause I'm outta town!!!!!!!!!
WHERE IS THE LOVE!!!!!
Damn man......if I'd known it was gonna play out like this......you two could've come w/ me to Ct. there are spare bedrooms in this big ass house & you would've loved the casino & my friends are cool as hell out here!!!!
Such is life.................
"THE FOURESOME COMING STRAIGHT TO YOU IN 2004"......
LOL.........shit maybe I oughta go take another shower...........oh boy.......
Today is a blah day.........I don't feel like doing anything now after stuffing my face w/ those nasty ass twinkies. I know if i take a hot shower, I'll be no good for the rest of the night. So, I suppose I'll remain frustrated & just a tad funky!!!!!
Oh yeah, I've heard that before.....oh, i live right off the highway & I end up in Queens somewhere asking some guy named Sal who's driving a camaro for directions! My friends hate when I do that.....I'm always asking people for directions.....I hate being lost. But it's funny though I HATE WHEN PEOPLE ASK ME FOR DIRECTIONS!!!!!!!! especially tourist, I LOVE FUCKIN W/ THEM!!!!!!!!
YEAH!!!!!!
you know......excuse me is this the way to the Empire State Building......& you turn them around & have them heading over to the West Side somewhere!
Yeah I know I'm Going To Hell.......I've Excepted My Fate!!!!!!!!
Ohhhhhhhhh sure now you guys wanna hang out & I can't even invite myself along cause I'm outta town!!!!!!!!!
WHERE IS THE LOVE!!!!!
Damn man......if I'd known it was gonna play out like this......you two could've come w/ me to Ct. there are spare bedrooms in this big ass house & you would've loved the casino & my friends are cool as hell out here!!!!
Such is life.................
the_mad_monk:
*Big Hug* posting Pink Floyd by yourself is a bad sign! Anything i can do???
I need a change. again. I always need a change I'm never satisfied so it seems 
This time it's physical. I need more holes in my body
Well, it's Friday! It's still freezing as fuck! and I have a date I really hate dating. Don't ask, I just do. 
But, it should be fun so I'm not complaining
I'm bored. again.
My cat bit my...
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I'm never satisfied so it seems This time it's physical. I need more holes in my body
Well, it's Friday! It's still freezing as fuck! and I have a date
I really hate dating. Don't ask, I just do.
But, it should be fun so I'm not complaining
I'm bored. again.
My cat bit my...
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_kai_:
thanks! 
ativan101:
Stage Fright AIN'T the word..........I remember the last communications class I had to take to graduate........I use to have to take Ativan & lots of it to get through all my speeches, one of the last big ones I had to do I took so much I was falling asleep in class......it was awful!!!!!!!!
You know the job I have now I often have to speak in front of people & that kinda wigs me out. A few is ok.....I can sorta deal, but more than 5 or so & if their strangers I really mean it, I want to die! I don't know......that's just me!
Anywhoo, once again have a lovely time tonight & don't forget to make a toast to me as I have done for you in the past 2 days!!!!!!
Fair is Fair!!!!!!!!
May good times be had by all this evening!!!!! CHEERS!!!!!!!!!!!
XXoo
You know the job I have now I often have to speak in front of people & that kinda wigs me out. A few is ok.....I can sorta deal, but more than 5 or so & if their strangers I really mean it, I want to die! I don't know......that's just me!
Anywhoo, once again have a lovely time tonight & don't forget to make a toast to me as I have done for you in the past 2 days!!!!!!
Fair is Fair!!!!!!!!
May good times be had by all this evening!!!!!
CHEERS!!!!!!!!!!!
XXoo
I added 2 more naughty pics.
In other news, I got a record setting number of comments yesterday. over 30! It made me almost not want to update. Thanx my lovebirds. I appreciate the love and support. It's not all just 01010101. There's substance in this online world.
I'm trying to smile and think positive. I really am. On the plus side I know these...
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In other news, I got a record setting number of comments yesterday. over 30!
It made me almost not want to update. Thanx my lovebirds. I appreciate the love and support. It's not all just 01010101. There's substance in this online world.
I'm trying to smile and think positive. I really am.
On the plus side I know these... Read More
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m0ngrel:
OOOWEEE!!!
wanna wrestle? DAMN GIRL YOU ARE HOT!!!
heheh...
wanna wrestle? DAMN GIRL YOU ARE HOT!!!
heheh...
clutch64:
heY hottie, missed flirting with you last nite. I got home at 4 a.m. our time 
O.T. sucks ... but it beats no job. Thanks for nice conversation, and making an older fuck feel desired I got your back.100% (i bet there's a whole lot of us pining for your attention... you are HOT) 
Have a good day,from your old school thrasher Buddy.)
I got home at 4 a.m. our time O.T. sucks ... but it beats no job. Thanks for nice conversation, and making an older fuck feel desired I got your back.100% (i bet there's a whole lot of us pining for your attention... you are HOT) Have a good day,from your old school thrasher Buddy.)I feel like a million bucks today! too bad I don't have a million bucks. If i did it'd be gone in a week for sure! I'd go bankrupt! 
oh yeah, I was making a point of feeling great! Well, I've learned a few lessons and applied them to my life and they have made a huge difference and improved my quality of life. I...
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oh yeah, I was making a point of feeling great! Well, I've learned a few lessons and applied them to my life and they have made a huge difference and improved my quality of life. I...
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_kai_:
Seriously, we should go together. I'm going the end of this month. For a weekend. Let me know if you want to go.
latortuga:
peace and quiet is hard to come by around here, except at night. like your new profile pic
it's a mad mad world
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wakeangel:
*regains consciosness sees pics faints again*
hi back...
hi back...
the_mad_monk:
Yes it is!!! Heh, i'd love to hear you play guitar!!!
yeah, so it's late or early or both. THe brain is beginning to shut down and I forgot what the hell I was going to say. It doesn't matter. It would've sucked anyway
the end.
Some people just freaking suck! and not that good kind of suck But this is something I *won't* get into....
I've decided to give spanish music another try. I've never been into it but I actually sat here and watched some campy spanish music videos and I despite the bad videos, the music isn't so bad. Although I think too much of it might give...
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But this is something I *won't* get into....
I've decided to give spanish music another try. I've never been into it but I actually sat here and watched some campy spanish music videos and I despite the bad videos, the music isn't so bad. Although I think too much of it might give...
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iamtony:
you need to meditate...ohhmmmmm ohmmmmm
m0ngrel:
if i was near... oh i'd cook for ya. oh yes i would.
.fin.
_kai_:
uh oh.
_kai_:
wait a minute? so you're leaving for good? You better e-mail me or something!
PS. Don't let people piss you off and drive you away from here. I mean, c'mon they're on the net!
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You better e-mail me or something!
PS. Don't let people piss you off and drive you away from here. I mean, c'mon they're on the net!
[Edited on Jan 12, 2004 5:52PM]
I feel like crap! 
I'm all over the place today. I don't know what to do first, I'm unfocused, and scattered. Could this mean I'm going crazy? Too many decisions to make!
I need a vacation from life! Maybe to Jamaica or something.
I love sugar! I'm surprised I stll have all my teeth!
I'm all over the place today. I don't know what to do first, I'm unfocused, and scattered. Could this mean I'm going crazy? Too many decisions to make!
I need a vacation from life! Maybe to Jamaica or something.
I love sugar! I'm surprised I stll have all my teeth!
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daniel13:
I smoke a bowl when i feel like that..
one thing at a time.
I love sugar too..makes me crazy..
ooooooo jamaica-i've alwyas wanted to go. My girl has been and had a great time....
one thing at a time.
I love sugar too..makes me crazy..
ooooooo jamaica-i've alwyas wanted to go. My girl has been and had a great time....
m0ngrel:
mmmmmm.... sugar.
mmmmmmmmm... jamaica.
unfocused and scattered? spot on for some LIMBO!!!!!
oh yeah baby! GO GO GO GO GO!!!!!
mmmmmmmmm... jamaica.
unfocused and scattered? spot on for some LIMBO!!!!!
oh yeah baby! GO GO GO GO GO!!!!!
Glad you're ok!!!!!!
I gotta go down to The Wolf's Den & see Keith Sweat perform......I love Keith if you didn't know!!!!! Anyway, I'll be around later...........
Let C know you're alive he was concerned too!!!!!
SEE YA LATER GATOR~