So I've been chatting with Alex a bit online and via text. Haven't heard his voice since last Sunday. And every time I think of him my insides just curl up and run around. It's lovely to know that I can still feel this for someone and so fucking annoying that I can't turn it off anymore.
For the last 2 1/2 years I've been able to seperate sex from everything else. I could put a big devide down that part of my life and now there's one person that I can't do it with and I get the impression they don't want to know.
I've slept with him so I can't really take it slowly, we haven't been back in touch long enough for it to be a "slip up" so go back to being just matesc and if I keep sleeping with him we'll just end up as fuck buddies or friends with benefits or whatever you want to call it.
Added to the fact that most women love him and when it comes to the whole love/sex thing, I can understand some bloke wanting to sleep with me but I can't understand them loving me.
How the hell to you approach that subject?
I just want to be with this man. I've never laughed as hard, or felt so good when I'm with someone. And most of the crap that rattles round my head on a normal day goes away when he's there. Even if it does land, it doesn't lay.
Jesus. I need to either fess up to him (and risk losing him altogether) or keep my mouth shat and find someone else (and spend forever wondering what if?). This would be so much easier if it didn't echo another incident in my life where I told him and now it's all fucked.
Help!
For the last 2 1/2 years I've been able to seperate sex from everything else. I could put a big devide down that part of my life and now there's one person that I can't do it with and I get the impression they don't want to know.
I've slept with him so I can't really take it slowly, we haven't been back in touch long enough for it to be a "slip up" so go back to being just matesc and if I keep sleeping with him we'll just end up as fuck buddies or friends with benefits or whatever you want to call it.
Added to the fact that most women love him and when it comes to the whole love/sex thing, I can understand some bloke wanting to sleep with me but I can't understand them loving me.
How the hell to you approach that subject?
I just want to be with this man. I've never laughed as hard, or felt so good when I'm with someone. And most of the crap that rattles round my head on a normal day goes away when he's there. Even if it does land, it doesn't lay.
Jesus. I need to either fess up to him (and risk losing him altogether) or keep my mouth shat and find someone else (and spend forever wondering what if?). This would be so much easier if it didn't echo another incident in my life where I told him and now it's all fucked.
Help!