tigerwong

Been looking back over the last bunch of entries and you know what? I think i've figured out what my problem is.

I'm not as focused as i need to be. I've been putting so much energy into things that don't matter while the things that do matter are getting passed over.

I shouldn't care about what this or that or the other person is doing; i should be focused on what I'M doing. Funny thing is that it required me working on my animation project (taking a break for the moment so my light table can cool down) to see that. I've been getting so upset about stuff that totally makes no difference when it comes to my career as an animator. I mean seriously... my job as a server is just so that i can pay for school. Anything that has anything to do with modeling is just for fun, so i don't need to get upset about ANYTHING that has to do with that.

My goal is to be the best ANIMATOR out there, so concerning myself with such petty things is really a waste of my time. Will i take the opportunity to model for a photographer wants to shoot with me? Of course! But i've really gotten off track with that (though thankfully my grades haven't suffered in the least). As for wanting a girlfriend/relationship/whatever, yeah i still do. But that'll have to wait. I've always known that. It's not the time for that so no matter how lonely i might get at one point or another, i should just take the energy that i would put into whining and use it to work more. Study human and animal movement, frame by frame thru animations that impress me and figure out how they were done so that i can do them better.

My goal is to be the best in the business. Modeling and having a social life, let alone a relationship come second. I have to keep sight of that or else i'll just get all unraveled again.