tigerlily

so how was your new year's eve/day?

so some very sweet and close friends of mine actually ended up surprising me by buying me a ticket to a big party in oakland for the midnight festivities...so i didn't have to spend it all by my lonesome after all. the party wasn't exactly my ideal scene, but being with my friends more than made up for it. i knew they were all going to roll, and i would have prefered not to...but it's not the greatest time to hang out with people on e when you're not. and my attitude was definitely leaning towards bitchy, so i went ahead and did it too. and as fun and sweet and relaxing and yummy and connecting as it was, the come down, for me at least, is so difficult, that it almost cancels out whatever fun is had for those brief hours. and spending all day yesterday strung out was not what i had in mind for the 1st day of '04. but...the important thing is, one of the friends i did it with is incredibly dear to my heart, and we had a lot of strife between us over the summer, and altho we had come a long way since then, there were a few little obstacles that neither one of us knew how to get around, and so the opportunity to be heart to heart with each other was the best new years gift i could have asked for.

just remind me of that in two days when i'm in an emotional "i have no seratonin left in my body" tail spin.

and totally man-constructed and artificial tho it may be (now i'm talking about new years, not e! ) many many wishes for 2004!!

probly won't be online this weekend...have a good one!