wow. thank you SO much, everyone, for the thanksgiving comments. made me warm down to my toes. and made the urge to share with my family almost irresistable...until the reality of their anticipated shocked reactions made me zip my lips!

there's a pretty good chance my mom will figure it out soon...i was doing my laundry and she saw my sg panties, then noticed the sticker on my car (this is while we're driving)..."what's this suicide girls.com thing i keep seeing?" "oh...it's just this online community for people into punk rock culture." "but why the suicide part?" "oh...you know...goth culture is into some of the darker aspects of life" "but i thought you weren't into that anymore?" i tactfully ended the conversation by pretending to get distracted by the car behind me. but then, my best friend came up and spent a couple days with my family, and at one point our original plans got foiled. so, being silly, bored and indecisive, and tired of sitting in the kitchen, we made a list of "options", just joking around, that went something like 1. stay in kitchen (all day) 2. rent two towers and smoke weed 3. make porn 4. log on to suicide girls (because she hadn't seen my set yet). BUT, i left the note lying around and my mom presented it to me with a tight lipped smile, "what's this about making porn?" "uhhhh....we were just being silly....?" she'll totally find out. i could never get away with anything with her. she once found my first two hits of acid that i had hidden in the bottom of an incense packet, just on a "hunch".