tigerlily

sigh. our server's STILL down, so look out for messages from me coming from other avenues...you know...little birds that hover in front of your window for a minute, that breeze that ruffled up your hair and made you sigh, your favorite song that was playing just as you turned on the radio...yup, all me. that pile of dog shit you stepped in, NOT me. that was leo.

happy equinox. i was so heavy hearted all day yesterday, and didn't even realize it was the first day of fall until the afternoon. just not ready for summer to be over. feeling heartsick over unresolved crap with people. feeling homesick for something i can't quite put my finger on. i think it's called "ennui". but i hung out with a close friend in the evening, and we went to a womyn's spa, and i had a chance to sit quietly in the sauna, and had a little reverie about past equinox's, where i was, and what i was doing. and a lot of the memories were sad as well. but it helped give perspective that whatever is going on for me right now is no bigger than any other situation that has happened before, and it's really just the same ol thing, just with different faces, and ultimately...no big deal....