tigerangel

Yes, I know it's been a while since I last updated. Sorry bout that.

Things have been weird for the past bit. Sometimes it feels like everything is going to start going well and life is going to start being--while not great at least good. Or should I say smooth. And then something happens and it all just bounces back to crappy and stress-filled. *sigh*

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I got (how the hell do you spell "jipt"???) out of winning a singing competition. The last night was on Halloween, so of course we had no audience. And all of my friends don't live on base so it would have been hard to get them all on. So, I had no one to vote for me. And it was audience vote. And the only people in the audience were people associated with the other 2 singers. Now, I am pretty honest with myself when it comes to admitting when someone else does a better job than I did. So, if I had been outperformed, I wouldn't have been upset. However, I truly believe that I performed better than the other 2 finalists and the only reason they placed ahead of me was due to the fact that they brought people in to vote for them. It was really upsetting and yes I cried. I didn't want to win just to "win" but I also really wanted first place because the prize as 500 bucks cash and we really really could have used it to help with bills. So it was upsetting twofold. Anyhoo......

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My birthday is coming up on the 19th. Anyone want to get me something? Gift cards are always very nice. Especially to places like Amazon or Target or Lane Bryant. Hell, I'd take gift certificates to the commissary or BX!

I admit that the upcoming bday is kind of freaking me out. I am going to be 26. No, I don't think that is "old" or anything, I just can't come to terms with the fact that I am hitting that birthday and I don't have kids. John and I have been married over 6 years. And it isn't that we don't want them, we do. But I need to lose weight. I am not going to have a child while being fat. It adds the possiblity of too many complications or side effects. So, I need to lose 100 pounds. Yeah, wow, I know. But that really is what I want to lose. Also, we both say that we don't want to have kids until we are financially stable. But sometimes I think that is not going to happen for a long ass time. Every month we struggle. I'd like to just be able to catch up and I know things would be fine. It's the catching up part that keeps dragging us down, ya know? I don't want to be 30 and still no kids.

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God, I feel like all I am doing is whining!!

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Another thing: IT IS FUCKING COLD!!! *shivers* I am not a cold person. I don't like the snow. I lived in it for way too long growing up. And now I am back and I keep trying to figure out why in the hell I agreed to come back here!

COLD!

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I took over a new group a little bit ago. It is the Zoos and Aquariums group and it is pretty slow. So if any of you like/work in either place, please come join us! I am trying to bring this group to life!

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I am trying to start selling stuff to make us some extra money. I have started selling on eBay. I put up some beautiful jewelry to start with, and I will be putting up clothes (most new from Lane Bryant) so if you are interested or willing, please go check out what I am selling and buy something! I have also listed some plus-size clothes over in the Swap Meet group. If you want and can buy anything, I'd really appreciate it!

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As some of you may remember, the Joe Grey Mysteries are my all time favorite read (I love cat mysteries). Well, the newest book came out and it is frickin' AWESOME:



It made me so happy that I cried at the end. I also did a couple self-contained squeals. I was so happy I had to go smoke a cigarette.