tiberius

My head actually seems to be on straight for once. Ive been on a fairly good creative streak lately, working on three projects each of which seems to be going pretty well. The voices in my head are taking their turn, thus allowing for thoughts to flow.

The bad thing is I tend to withdraw when Im at my most creative. Its times like these, when Im living in my own headspace that I tend towards an even greater disdain for humanity. Its nothing personal, but I just dont have any use for random chatter. Im lucky that I have friends who dont seem to mind my disappearing for a month or two, or three. Sure, there are those who probably do, but they dont say anything about it. At least not to my face.

Unfortunately the same goes for the Woman. She hates when Im in writing mode. I know its clich, but I tend to think of a good relationship as one where you really dont need to speak, or even be present; one where you just take silent comfort in the fact that someone out there cares about you. Id say that this is perhaps a result of my being an only child, but shes one tooand she definitely craves consistent positive reinforcement

Then of course, shes only now accepting that she wont achieve that childhood dream of being an actress. Dont get me wrong, I do love her, but theres a reason why other guys in this town tell you to never to get involved with any girl who says shes an actress.

So I get distant, she gets moody and, well The voices in my head start talking over one another, thoughts get muddled and I stop writing...