direction. For the last 3 yrs I have lacked it. For some they would find that surprising due to the fact that I have aquired a career during that time. The problem is that I sold my acceptance of said career far to well. Truth be told I have never felt more lost. Meeting all of the expections required of me has cost me my freedom, my peace and my soul. Drinking is not a solution, its just a response. I'm well on my way to a problem if I dont start saying no.....at some point.
I can't tell anyone that I know really. If I said I was having a hard time to my job it would be more trouble than its worth. I cant tell my ex because she depends on my stablity....and I dont really know alot of people personally. I can tell you, but wtf. History isnt what it should be for me to be saying half the things I have said here over the years.
Im strong. I suprise myself most of the time. So I know I will get through this like I do every year. I'm just tired of doing is alone.
I can't tell anyone that I know really. If I said I was having a hard time to my job it would be more trouble than its worth. I cant tell my ex because she depends on my stablity....and I dont really know alot of people personally. I can tell you, but wtf. History isnt what it should be for me to be saying half the things I have said here over the years.
Im strong. I suprise myself most of the time. So I know I will get through this like I do every year. I'm just tired of doing is alone.
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arctcknight:
if you are pulling a fargo i wanna watch, plus it always helps with the cops to have a white guy around (especially a very non threatening looking white guy like me)
weaselqueen:
I know we've only met once, but I'm here to listen. Ryan knows how to get ahold of me. I may not drink anymore, but I'm happy to meet you at the Fox or elsewhere to chat.