I think about the last couple of years and I have to say that it seems that most of what I needed to happened happened. I am totally out of debt, minus a few things to build my credit, my ex/bff is doing well and the kids have everything they could ever want. I have been talking to her alot and I have to say that I do want to try again....and I have told her this. Yet, we both have realized that the only thing that will determine our future is how things go on leave....when I come home. Its scary really. I thought that the time apart would have helped us, but it seems to have fixed only half of the problem. Our friendship is great, but I dont think shes really sure about us being together....I guess niether am I. Im willing to try, I want to try, but I dont want to push. So, I have left the whole thing up to her.
The fact of the matter is, even if she doesnt want to be a couple, I will always take care of her. I cant not do that. I know that I cant, even if I wanted to. The childern need their mother and she does such an amazing job that I couldnt imagine putting any pressure on them buy changing the arrangement. I have been there, by phone, to support her choices and help figure out different situations. We have had some great talks and I encourage her every chance I get. I wonder if that is the extent of her need for me. Money and morale support.
The fact of the matter is, even if she doesnt want to be a couple, I will always take care of her. I cant not do that. I know that I cant, even if I wanted to. The childern need their mother and she does such an amazing job that I couldnt imagine putting any pressure on them buy changing the arrangement. I have been there, by phone, to support her choices and help figure out different situations. We have had some great talks and I encourage her every chance I get. I wonder if that is the extent of her need for me. Money and morale support.