thyestean23

I feel caught between worlds.....but then I have always been caught. The wonder of a child and the anger of a demon. I used to say that ones potential for evil was proportionate to their potential for good. Now I say that potential and be crushed under the pressure to be moral and correct. A bloody insanity is what oozes from under it. Its a...
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Being that I cant leave well enough alone I had to call her again.....just to hear the tone in her voice. It was the same as always...calm, smooth, possibly happy. I got a list of what was going on along with the appropiate questions about my patrols. As always I couldnt decipher whether this was the best friend tone or I want you back tone....
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Generally speaking, I am not someone to be misjudged. If you'er looking for trouble, with me, your going to find it. I do a good job of not going out of my way to be a pain in the ass, but 'dont poke' is my veiw.

Yesterday I got "poked" by a civilian and they got what was coming to them; a verbal punch in...
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broke through the 5mile wall today. As I may have mention I love running, but I have never really been that great at it. In Iraq working out is about all you really can focus on besides patrols. Im kind of a big guy, 207lbs...I should update that, and have never been fast. Yet, I usually run about 20 miles a week and I try...
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Omfgwtfmonster

yes, it has struck again. This is the reason I hate trying to be "nice", because i clearly am not capable. I am in the fucking infantry for god's sake. These people are suppose to be stone cold killers and yet they whine about how much of an "asshole" I am. I didnt even say anything....the whole day. I was the driver today on...
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I think about the last couple of years and I have to say that it seems that most of what I needed to happened happened. I am totally out of debt, minus a few things to build my credit, my ex/bff is doing well and the kids have everything they could ever want. I have been talking to her alot and I have to say...
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"perfection" written by Joseph Murphy 9-01-02

I stand here
amazed
at the way she gazes at me
and I know that
each day
is a novel that the stars could never write

and I orbit around her
my precious venus flower
its the sound that surrounds her
chaos is perfection

I tend to slide
through the clouds
cause its her that is inside me
I...
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Kids are so badass.

The most recent rant has been removed.

Well, its finally done. I finally settled the last real issue between myself and my ex. No more questions no more wondering, no more lies. For the first time it feels over, truly over. Just in time too, two weeks before I deploy. Everything is wrapped up. Now, there's nothing left to say. Im gonna disappear for awhile.

There is nothing worse than fooling yourself. There's nothing worse than having to be careful of what you say. There is nothing worse than being unsure. There is, therefore, nothing worse than regret. Sometimes when your running around this illusion we call life you come to find that your original assumptions were the correct ones. There is nothing worse than doubting your knowledge of self....
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god this song makes me so fucking happy...

Angels on the sideline, Puzzled and amused. Why did Father give these humans free will? Now they're all confused. Don't these talking monkeys know that Eden has enough to go around? Plenty in this holy garden, silly monkeys, Where there's one you're bound to divide it, Right in two. Angels on the sideline, baffled and confused. Father...
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