I've been wanting to shoot awesome pics for SG since I was 16 and had to wait two long years till I was 18 to do my first set. I'm 22 now and still I want to be a SG. I've deleted the first two or three accepted sets and now only have the rejected sets uploaded, but that's because I felt that they were never good enough...
But! Here's something I found while I was looking over my app form from 2006:
I want to be a suicide girl because i know i am one. Strong, sexy, and confidant. The suicide girls represent who i want to be. So sexy and independent and gawked at in such a way that's almost hypnotizing. They constantly amaze me. Each model is so beautiful and just simply astounding in so many ways it leaves me in a bit of awe.
i want to be be a suicide girl because of all these reasons and then some. These girls have the power to leave so many dumbfounded and just wow you know?
so for me to become a suicide girl it'd be a dream come true because i know I'm not perfect but damn i want to get out there and have everyone know my name. i'm so scared of doing this but what the hell right? to be a suicide girl it'll be worth it.
Looking back, a lot of these statements remain true to me... despite everything I've heard, know, and learned about the troubles and controversies surrounding SG land and whatnot. I understand that a number of people are dissatisfied with the way SG is but eh. I don't have much to really say about it.
I'm happy, life's good, and things are looking up. I have an amazing bf and love him so much and he supports me no matter what and gives me the love I need =)
