Ugh so I hate to be posting about anything less than positive but also feel the need to be raw and just open about shit going on in my life with yall. Sooooo ...
I know many of yall know but for those that dont I was diagnosed with T1D earlier this year. I was hospitalized and it was a whole ordeal because my organs were failing. T1 is different than T2 because T2 is just an insulin block due to poor health usually and T1 is my body just doesnt make any insulin. Theyre pretty sure that a strain of the flu I got last year caused my body to react different which made me T1. Over the past months Ive been doing my best to stick to the strict diet, take insulin 4-6times a day, and stay on their workout plan. But recently my family moved to San Diego, as my husband is in the Navy, and Tricare is a pain in the ass. They assign you a new Dr. without any choice what so ever, the dr they assigned me doesnt even have a working phone number, and I cant find an accurate address. Ive now run out of test strips and due to Covid theyve raised the price out of network from $15 to $120 for a 9 day supply and I cant afford over $400 a month just on the test strips when my insulin is already $600.mo not including the insulin, needles, alcohol wipes, and all the other shit I have to purchase because of it. At this point I have no clue what my sugars are at and frankly im terrified to go to sleep and just not wake up... I had a CGM subscription but since I cant contact my new dr they wont renew it even though they were supposed to send the order over 6 weeks ago. Ive spent my days on phone call after phone.. waiting for hours in the hold line just for them to tell me I have to contact someone else.. and at this point im just so overwhelmed. I know its only natural to find myself just wondering "why me." why cant I just be fucking normal, why do I have to deal with this fucking medical problem that puts me at risk.. but Im trying to push past those thoughts and look towards the positives... as difficult as that can be.
In this moment, as stressed and confused as I am, I am really grateful to have yall as a community to turn to so I dont feel completely overwhelmed in this. I so appreciate all of you and thankyall for listening to my rant about this bs.. Much love. XO Thumper
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