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Well, we actually met at rainbow club at school. Aparently I'm the reason why she still comes to the meetings. At first I just flirted with her because I could, and I wanted to see if i could get a rise out of someone that much older than me. But in the last few weeks we've been hanging out alot more at school. I even modeled my lips for one of her drawing assignments. Last thursday she was planning on telling me how she really felt about me when we were hanging out at school, but then one of the guys she knows from her writing class saw us and started hanging out with us as well. So she lost her nerve. The next morning I check my email and she sent me this huge email, confessing all her thoughts, concerns, what ifs, worries to me. She basically poured out her heart to me in this email, and it just totally blew me away. I admire this woman so much, because she is so brave and stong, even though she doesnt give herself enough credit for it. But yeah, she likes me alot, and I like her alot, I like the person I am when I'm with her. She makes me smile and laugh, and actually talk, which is something I havnt done for a long time.
Anywho, I just got back from our first date, and it was so much fun. We just went and got sandwiches at subway, then went down to this park by the river and sat, ate our lunch, talked, walked around and talked. I'm so comfortable with her, I can almost tell her anything. Lol, she was a little upset when I wouldnt kiss her though. And she's the one who wants to take it slow! But its just my thing to not kiss someone on the first date, so maybe on thursday when we go out again I will. Because I really did want to, but I was a little too aware of our surroundings. Oh well, thursday, it will happen, and hopefully it will be everything I've imagined.