throughnthrough

told work that i couldn't be there until five...i'll close the store but, i literally almost took off a bad customer's head yesterday... i NEVER lose control when it comes to customer service- but yesterday i did...i gave her an attitude and my most scathing looks...she deserved it but, i honestly just CAN'T deal with anything else right now.

my grandfather was the last straw...my mother went to visit him today so that's another reason (the main one) that i can't make it into work until later...i just have to shut down...and i don't have another day off until saturday...so i'll be leaving after work on friday night, hopefully with the wubba if his grandmother will "let" me take him ( ) ( and, oh, SHE WILL!) and spending the evening of friday and sat. with the hubby up at the trailer... then i have to drive back down sat. night to be to work on sunday... that is, if i AM working this sunday...stupid bitch hasn't even me next week's schedule...

I've fucking had it! HAD. IT!!!

I am done...mentally, physically, emotionally: DONE...let the circus begin...i'll be in the freak show under "world's greatest life catastrophe" and i know that that is a HUGE exaggeration and that there are millions who are worse off than myself but...as far as MY life goes...i am drawing a fucking blank. My head literally CANNOT process anything else at the moment.