well I put up my Facebook, but I have no friends...someone send some love! 
I had a rough night last night, but at least my mother took my son for a few hours so i could get some well-needed and deserved sleep...and thank god, because the hubby and i didn't get into bed until 5 am...at least the baby stayed asleep until 9, so I got 4 solid hours of sleep.
And today, I think I need some advice...how do you find and keep the motivation needed for a complete lifestyle change? I need to find the courage and independence I used to have. I need to find a place within myself that is calm, disciplined, and focused...I've always felt like a disappointment to everyone in my life. Since even before I was in kindergarten, I was told that I could do anything I wanted to do...(i know, woe is me, right?) but what happens when those expectations go far past what you feel capable of? Not even past what I am capable of, but what I am able to commit to...prolonged effort was never a strong suit of mine, but I need to get my shit together PRONTO! I'm driving away everyone close to me just because I can't stand the pressure anymore. But I know that I CAN stand the pressure...I just gave up somewhere along the way...
I used to keep a big sign taped to the wall next to my bed that said "Get off your ass and just DO IT!" maybe, it is time that I reimplemented the tactic...it certainly held for awhile. Just with having a son, my ability to schedule and have solid routine went right out the window. it's extremely hard to dictate what the day of a one-year will look like...and it drives me nuts. I'm a Virgo, through and through (No pun intended) so organization is central to my ability to function. It is also central to my being able to find happiness...it's the clutter and what-ifs in life that kick my ass.
Any suggestions? comments? programs that worked for you? Color me a wretch today...just one of those days, I suppose. Sorry if most of this was nonsensical...i'm just feeling the need write a things to do list for my entire life right now. And who ever said i was bipolar
I prefer ADD with side of panic disorder any day!
I had a rough night last night, but at least my mother took my son for a few hours so i could get some well-needed and deserved sleep...and thank god, because the hubby and i didn't get into bed until 5 am...at least the baby stayed asleep until 9, so I got 4 solid hours of sleep.
And today, I think I need some advice...how do you find and keep the motivation needed for a complete lifestyle change? I need to find the courage and independence I used to have. I need to find a place within myself that is calm, disciplined, and focused...I've always felt like a disappointment to everyone in my life. Since even before I was in kindergarten, I was told that I could do anything I wanted to do...(i know, woe is me, right?) but what happens when those expectations go far past what you feel capable of? Not even past what I am capable of, but what I am able to commit to...prolonged effort was never a strong suit of mine, but I need to get my shit together PRONTO! I'm driving away everyone close to me just because I can't stand the pressure anymore. But I know that I CAN stand the pressure...I just gave up somewhere along the way...
I used to keep a big sign taped to the wall next to my bed that said "Get off your ass and just DO IT!" maybe, it is time that I reimplemented the tactic...it certainly held for awhile. Just with having a son, my ability to schedule and have solid routine went right out the window. it's extremely hard to dictate what the day of a one-year will look like...and it drives me nuts. I'm a Virgo, through and through (No pun intended
) so organization is central to my ability to function. It is also central to my being able to find happiness...it's the clutter and what-ifs in life that kick my ass.
Any suggestions? comments? programs that worked for you? Color me a wretch today...just one of those days, I suppose. Sorry if most of this was nonsensical...i'm just feeling the need write a things to do list for my entire life right now. And who ever said i was bipolar
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"I prefer ADD with side of panic disorder any day!"---WIN. <3