i've been thinking about hope. having "it" can be a mixed blessing.
yesterday, at work, i snapped. i experienced an accumulation of stress, pain, petty indifference, et al. and i allowed myself to be tipped over the edge, onto the slippery slope. then, instead of calling a time out, i lost it.
fortunately, as i got cranked up and started to yell, i heard the little voice in my head and stopped. "no need to blow my...
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fortunately, as i got cranked up and started to yell, i heard the little voice in my head and stopped. "no need to blow my...
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i have never been big on exercise. it's a long story.
fortunately i am a relatively healthy and skinny by nature (this of course means i am in the 'doesn't eat when stressed' category, not the 'eats potatoes in any form when stressed' category.)
this has been my winter of discontent with regard to snow shoveling, and last weekend my body hit the tipping point...
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fortunately i am a relatively healthy and skinny by nature (this of course means i am in the 'doesn't eat when stressed' category, not the 'eats potatoes in any form when stressed' category.)
this has been my winter of discontent with regard to snow shoveling, and last weekend my body hit the tipping point...
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attack_macaque:
I'm not big in exercise either. Unfortunately, I am one of those in the "eat when stressed" crowd, which is probably one of the main reasons I'm about 100 pounds overweight. 
One of the compromises I've had to make with myself in order to remain at least somewhat sane is that there are certain philosophical alleys that, once I find myself going down them, I immediately turn around and walk back from whence I came, so I don't get jumped by something nasty that I really don't want to face. Having an overactive mind is not always a good thing.
Yes, I have seen that light at the end of the tunnel. It's way off in the distance, but nonetheless I'm pretty sure it's not a train. Which means it's either daylight, or the tunnel is on fire.
One of the compromises I've had to make with myself in order to remain at least somewhat sane is that there are certain philosophical alleys that, once I find myself going down them, I immediately turn around and walk back from whence I came, so I don't get jumped by something nasty that I really don't want to face. Having an overactive mind is not always a good thing.
Yes, I have seen that light at the end of the tunnel. It's way off in the distance, but nonetheless I'm pretty sure it's not a train. Which means it's either daylight, or the tunnel is on fire.
kundalini:
I exercise to stay sane. Most people in my profession drink. I throw weights around and beat the heavy bag hanging in my basement. It's a great stress reliever. And it allows me to work off the calories of all of the dark chocolate I consume.
i have always been interested in time, and its passage. we have no real reason to believe that the future will resemble the past, but most us go to bed each night "knowing" that the sun will rise in the 'morrow.
it is only in retrospect that we understand how particular moments are inexorably important. i have pictures in my head of scenes, like a...
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it is only in retrospect that we understand how particular moments are inexorably important. i have pictures in my head of scenes, like a...
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attack_macaque:
Time is a weird, unsettling thing. My memories of the past, even the relatively recent past, seem almost to belong to somebody else. Even the really big moments in my life have faded almost to nothing. When I'm in the process of experiencing something in the present, the passage of time seems slow, but after reflecting on the things I've experienced it seems like time flies by quickly. (Not sure if that makes sense the way I expressed it...)
As for the future, I'm one of those who takes it for granted that there will be a tomorrow. I have a hard time dealing with the idea that my life will eventually end - not so much the idea that I might no longer exist, but the question of what it will be like to experience death, and what will happen to my consciousness after death. Do we go on to an afterlife, get reincarnated, relive our lives (or some alternative version of our lives), or do we just wander around in some state of limbo? I've thought about this a lot. Yes, I'm a bit neurotic...
As for the future, I'm one of those who takes it for granted that there will be a tomorrow. I have a hard time dealing with the idea that my life will eventually end - not so much the idea that I might no longer exist, but the question of what it will be like to experience death, and what will happen to my consciousness after death. Do we go on to an afterlife, get reincarnated, relive our lives (or some alternative version of our lives), or do we just wander around in some state of limbo? I've thought about this a lot.
Yes, I'm a bit neurotic...i went to a play. it was the glass menagerie. i fell asleep.
s_eldorado:
Oh dear! That good, huh?
attack_macaque:
I once saw a porno called "The Ass Menagerie." Probably not as boring as the play. Probably more anal, too.
hi ho hi ho
attack_macaque:
Who you callin' a ho?
Rosa-chan is hot. No, scratch that - Rosa-chan is hawt!
She has that mesmerizing smile. If only she were a gravure idol... 
Rosa-chan is hot. No, scratch that - Rosa-chan is hawt!
She has that mesmerizing smile. If only she were a gravure idol...
attack_macaque:
LOL, I was just punning. 
I passed my test! And there was much rejoicing...
"...and the people did feast upon the lambs, and sloths, and carp, and anchovies, and orangutans, and breakfast cereals, and fruitbats..."
I passed my test! And there was much rejoicing...
"...and the people did feast upon the lambs, and sloths, and carp, and anchovies, and orangutans, and breakfast cereals, and fruitbats..."
who did you see in your mind's eye the last time you had an orgasm?
attack_macaque:
Mind's eye: Rosa Kato.
Body's eyes: some people on RedTube.
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Body's eyes: some people on RedTube.
:rubspitrub:i had to go to physiotherapy today. i would have done the therapist in a heartbeat. is that unethical?
attack_macaque:
I think it's only unethical for her.
attack_macaque:
Actually, it may not be unethical for her either. I think it's only unethical if she's a psychiatrist. Unless it happens on TV, of course, in which case it's all good.
i love some things about this web site. other things, not so much.
attack_macaque:
I hear ya...I had forgotten that there were reasons why I allowed my account to lapse, besides just laziness. Not that laziness had nothing to do with it, mind you... Eh, I'll give it three months and decide then if I want to renew.
Now, if you'll excuse me, I have a craving for some BRAAAAAAAAAINS....
Eh, I'll give it three months and decide then if I want to renew.
Now, if you'll excuse me, I have a craving for some BRAAAAAAAAAINS....
attack_macaque:
You'd actually be surprised - Texas has a reputation of being a hardcore conservative state, and that reputation is somewhat well deserved, but despite that, and despite the disorganized state of the Dems down here, we have a pretty decent number of Dems/liberals down here, all things considered. Don't forget, we gave the world Molly Ivins and Ann Richards. 
Of course, Austin is a well-known liberal enclave, but Dallas is going that route too, and Houston isn't far behind. And with the demographic trends in this state being what they are, it won't be long before Texas is a competitive state for Democrats again.
Of course, Austin is a well-known liberal enclave, but Dallas is going that route too, and Houston isn't far behind. And with the demographic trends in this state being what they are, it won't be long before Texas is a competitive state for Democrats again.in my spare time i like to look at my friends' "faves" and think about them.
i don't want to work, i just want to bang on my drums all day. really, i do. it is -25 with a wind chill of -30 C. wtf?! it's march, i am taking the day off.
attack_macaque:
Damn, that's cold. 
You're not stationed in the Arctic, are you?
Here in Tex-ass it's seasonably warm, supposed to get a little colder over the next few days but nothing like that. I would say that I feel your pain, but I think that would require me stepping into a meat locker or something...
You're not stationed in the Arctic, are you?
Here in Tex-ass it's seasonably warm, supposed to get a little colder over the next few days but nothing like that. I would say that I feel your pain, but I think that would require me stepping into a meat locker or something...
it's -26 C outside my window at the moment..
kundalini:
What brings you back in this chilly month of March?
attack_macaque:
Damn, that's cold.
So how's it going? Apparently there's been some glitch in the matrix that's been resurrecting the dead, so I'm back after a 2+ year absence. Were you gone for a while too?
So how's it going?
Apparently there's been some glitch in the matrix that's been resurrecting the dead, so I'm back after a 2+ year absence. Were you gone for a while too?