thomasheath

I have been having a really really bad week. First off to my car has been on the fritz so it was parked at my apartment complex. Yesterday I got a note on it saying that it was going to be towed if it was not moved. Well I tried to jump it and nothing happened so now I have to have it towed to a garage and have it repaired. Luckily my Mom is going to pay for it and I will pay her back. If not I was going to lose my car because I did not have the money to get it out if the complex had it towed. Also I found out today that my father is dead. Now my dad and I have not spoken or seen each other for 20 years. I have had no contact with him. Well I got a letter saying that he had some stock divedend that was due him or me as his only heir. So I called Social Security and they confirmed that he is indeed dead. They would not give me any more info but are sending me a report that will give me more information. I am not sure how I feel about it. I am a mixture of socked sad and disappointed. I guess I held out hope that he was still alive and he wanted to find me too. I wonder what caused him to never contact me. I wonder if he remarried and had more children. There are too many questions that I cant answer. I also feel kinda alone you see I am the last to carry on my family name. I guess I am just a bunch of different emotions